it's 3:41am and i cannot sleep. i have to be up at 6am.....if i fell asleep now i could get a little over two hours sleep. i am so tired but no matter what i do i can't fall asleep. this is so annoying! i know without any sleep i am going to look like shit and feel like it too in the morning.

tomorrow i am signing the lease for the apartment alex and i will be moving into!!! i am so happy! everytime i think about that adorable little apartment i am filled with joy.. haha. it's on main st. in downtown.... you know you're jealous. it's so perfect and the landlord is so nice. i can't wait to move in and buy cute furniture for my cute ( Read more... )

I believe in something but i don't know what it is.
It's either the future or the end.
It's every reason that I do or don't get out of bed.

man oh man have i done it this time.

i want a puppy. i want one realllll bad. they love you unconditionally and are always there. there is a specific type of dog i want though and they are kind of hard to find around here; they're called weimarners and they are cute as can be. i can't wait till i can save the money up to have one.

i used to never show my emotions. i never let my guard down; i never allowed myself to feel too much or to get too involved. my family taught me that early on. above all i never allowed myself to trust anyone. all that was good and well, but it was really lonely, and in the end everyone would write me off as cold or shy or bitchy. i wanted someone ( Read more... )

today was my birthday. happy 18th to me.

last night was a bust.

yay for concerts with my baby i can't wait to see arcade fire! and i miss being in philly!!

man i am stupid to think you could change, to actually get hopefull only to realize over the past few weeks that you won't. if only everyone new the real you, the you that i have to know, it's not pretty.