The endless cycles turn,
in my minds eye the images burn,
grief is gone, anger has fled,
slowly away the rage has bled.

In the dark of night I seek to find,
some new hope for my weary mind,
but only in the early light of day,
do I find the hope of a new pathway.

Melodic music soothes my soul,
true friends show me that I can still be whole,
she proved to ( Read more... )

To any who love me and read the last post I apologize for the abruptness of it. Though I do strongly believe that a part of me died tonight ( Read more... )

I am finding it impossible to get her off my mind, everywhere I go another memory I find ( Read more... )

It seems during my darkest hours i turn back to this stupid log.  I am sure by now that no-one reads this anymore.  But thats okay, I am ranting to rant, to drain the void from my soul.  On July 8th, 2007 the woman I have loved for the last 3 years left me, she took her kids that i have been daddy to for the last 3 years and moved 500 miles away, ( Read more... )

Well I just found out that my ex's father has level 3 lymphoma cancer. She called to inform me, and then tell me that we (me, her, and her fiancee) must all quit smoking. When I told her that I couldn't promise her that(I thouroughly enjoy smoking), she said "Oh, I'll help you quit... yeah.. fun. Ummm.. no. Then comes the fact that we have only ( Read more... )

Randomness is the word of the day. I'm starting to sound like Chessi. I decided to post and now I can't decide WHAT to post. Shout outs to Prof Frost, Pnthrmgk, TL, Joe, Chessi, and anyone else who reads this . . . HI ( Read more... )

Well, where to start? First and foremost it has been way to long since I last posted. Chessi, I don't know if you even read you journal anymore. I see your last post was quite a while ago. So if you see this you see it. Well my Fiancee is pregnant, about 4 1/2 weeks at the moment. I am going back to school on the 4th ... yay... emm.. yeah. ( Read more... )

Funny how the two that I KNEW where the only ones who would care are actually the only two that care. Anyways, I am starting to lose faith in humanity. All lies, deciet, shrouded miseries. Knifed words into your brain, cuts you deeply. Backstabbing, sneak-thief, devious pursuits all for the means of obtaining power. I don't know what this ( Read more... )

Where are you? I sincerely hope you have a good reason... I know you don't have access to IE like me but you could at least call like I said. Anyway, I was waiting... it appears you've just renewed my faith, faith in the reason why we no longer hang. Not trying to piss you off, just stating facts, these are inevitable and very real reasons our ( Read more... )

Well she called me finally after 12 days of seemingly non-existance. Said she was sorry the usual blah blah, been busy blah blah, why don't we go out tonight? *Ears perked, smile engaged, mind active... sure ( Read more... )