See I have been thinking about my current situation and I have realized that it has been all self imposed. I have had a hard life even in my early years. When i was 6 or 7 my upper lip was taken way from me. It was bitten off by a dog. I had 55 stitches and after 3 surgury's I have a lip that looks almost normal and nobody can notice except me of ( Read more... )

So yeah im watching my friend kyles house for the next couple of days. Which is sweet! 4 days away from my parents. Im wondering why im not as happy as i should be about it. Maybe i still feel guity over me hitting my dad. Maybe its cuz I have this inablility to stay happy. I fear its the latter. I have alot of pressure on me from my parents and my ( Read more... )

Well i officially did it. I passed a semester of college. I did it with my grandpa dying. My parents drunken verbal abuse and my own problems with myself. I just want people to know me for who I am. How fucking smart I am. How confident i am in my chances in life. Right now i could go for a pick me up joke or statement but im not holding my breath ( Read more... )

Why do I have to fucking be in this world. Why does this world hate me so much to but me here with my parents and there disease. Im fucking sick of it I need to fucking move out oh yeah Im fucking broke cuz of my Dad. I have no money, no job, and no fucking life. What do I have to do to fucking live. I want to live with no fucking cloud over my ( Read more... )

Well im back in school again doing a chemistry degree once again. I dont know if it is the right degree for me but im pretty sure this time that it is. But I haave one major problem and that is I have insomnia again and Im starting to get sick again. On tuesday I have 2 tests and I need to do good on them so I start this semester of right yet my ( Read more... )

I am fully registered at wayne state. I'm taking two chem classes and english and precalculus. Me and John have a class together so that kicks ass. I wonder if I will see that one crazy liberal chick from orientation again she was kinda cool. Other than that nothing has been going on other than christmas shopping and i got my christmas present from ( Read more... )

Well Im going to Wayne state in January so I will finally be back nd school but there is still one thing missing and that is Im alone. I spend almost 80 percent of the week by myself. I have friends but there at school or work. I still have no girlfriend and god knows when i ever will get one. My friend kyle got one before me. Thats his first and ( Read more... )

Well I decided to come down for a weekend and it was a good decision cuz I had a great time. Things are good for once and I feel free of the bonds of my sadness. I have nothing on my mind anymore just whatever is going on at the time although i do wonder at times. I see life as one big test of your will cuz it is always throws problems at you and ( Read more... )

I have no where to go for college yet and its so so close to starting up again. WVU is fucking me over with there bullshit so I cant get my transcripts sent anywhere. So even if i could get in anywhere else thats not going to happen till WVU stops fucking with me. Its bad enough I have lossed the chance to be in WVU's marching band and to see a ( Read more... )

The last three days has been great for me ever since I saw my auntie I have been in a really great mood. I still dont know where I going for college and i really dont care cuz i will do great in either place. My peeps in wvu want me to come back which is surprising cuz i thought I wouldnt be missed yet I have had alot of people say come back. I got ( Read more... )