Well i started my deit 2 days ago in the hopes of losing my fat ass. Im going to get into shape so i can play basketball again. I still waiting for an answer from michigan state and man do i wish they would move faster. If they dont get back to me soon then its off to wvu for me and im going to have to pay off my debt there before i can even get my ( Read more... )

Damn i have no luck at all with women. I first made my first attempt to get a girlfriend with joy she said no. Then with emily I was leaving when we found out about how we felt so again a no. Then my latest attempt with sarah was a complete failure once again. Looks like my bad luck continues onward. My life is summed up by this no JOB, no MONEY, ( Read more... )

Yeah my life sucks as of late i finally get out of the hole i dig for myself and this time my mom gives me the knife in the back. I expect it from my family but not my mom. She took my future away from me and know all I am is a shell of a human that I was. I have no money my mom wont sign on my college loans, she stopped paying my car insurnece and ( Read more... )

I dont know where im heading anymore. I want to go back to college yet my mind isnt in the idea of going anymore. I have realized that I have no job, not in college, no money, and no girlfriend not like i have a chance anyway. I have realized that im a complete loser and I really dont care. I want to live in the basement of my parents forever and ( Read more... )

I finally got the internet back up at my house so i will fill in a couple of days. For one on sunday i had the weirdest dream ever. I actually felt the person like i was there. My hands and mouth registered touch and it was so real. It was quite amazing and i hope it never happens again cuz it was quite frighting. Then I have been in my basement ( Read more... )

I have finally beat prince of persia warrior within. It took 4 days but it was a good 4 days. I have totally givin up the thought of ever have a relationship with anyone so I have OFFICIALLY givin up. I dont care no more I have given up to the thought of being alone for the rest of my life. Hell there is no chance on hell for be so why even try ( Read more... )

Ok I'M backing up the car for my mom and wham she fucking backs into my car and then says nothing happened and that im lying so im like bitch look at what you did but she wouldnt go look. God I hate the people in my life right now. Well it looks like in going to wvu in a couple of weeks to see my friends which will be kick ass. I will see emily ( Read more... )

Today i have been talking to emily and i realize i can let go of her for now it is quite obvisous that she wants me to be back I dont know for what reasons but we shall see in the future. I can finally meditate again I think this was a major problem that cuz me to not be able to focus. There is good times ahead for me and I dont care about the past ( Read more... )

My parents continue to get worse and my memories haunt me. I want to leave this city and never come back I'm truely sick of it here in Eastpointe. I dont care where I go just as long as it isnt here. I want to be free of my parents and family. I havegone down to sleeping alll the time and doing nothing when im not. I havent eaten more than a meal a ( Read more... )

Im sick of the bullshit of the people around me. My dad is drinking again so I have to be in fear. He was trying to get me to break my non voilence beliefs. Then me and Kaji where out at state solo ensamble and one of his members attacked him and I broke it up. Just I dont want to be violent cuz it is against everything I believe yet everyoe is ( Read more... )