So I thought since I went to all the trouble to change my password I would just post something. Life still sucks in some ways. Quite possibly my mom and I may lose our condo. I am really hoping that won't happen. We are trying to make a deal. We don't even owe 5,000 on the maintenance.I just have to think positive. But all I can think of lately is ( Read more... )

Since I have posted anything on this thing. In 2 months it will be a year since I last did. But anywho life is still the same, boring and lonely nothing changes. I have to work soon and I don't want to as usual. Thats about it. hehe nothing big and exciting.

Well I havent posted on here in a couple of months. I have been I guess ok, I have mostly been writing in an actual journal, keep my thoughts to myself and also posting on my myspace blog ( Read more... )

So I barely ever post on here lately. OH well whats new ?? Just working worrking working, I am back at LA Weightloss again :) I started back there last week and I have lost 5 pounds already I am so happy and excited to fit into my old clothing again. YAYA I am totally sticking to it. Nothing will make me stray this time around. So thats new. I am ( Read more... )

Its been a bit since I have posted anything on here so I feel like updating. Once again as I always say my life has been boring and just pretty frustrating. My mother and I are still living with my Nanny, I hope at least by the end of next month our place is ready for us to do our fixing up. I need my room again, I need to get away. Also work is ( Read more... )

I have been thinking alot today, of moments in time. Moments that had once made happy, made me smile now they bring tears to my eyes. I don't want to think of these things they just make me feel like what was the point in that. Why do I have to remember something that was once so great that just turned into something so painful. How come everything ( Read more... )

Well I just woke up a few minutes ago, just waiting on my coffee to finish. And apparently I can't type all that well, I keep on making corrections. Anywho I am tired and don't feel like going to work today. I'm not quite sure if I'm going to be closing since I am scheduled til 9:30 and we close at that time. But there are 2 other people there as ( Read more... )

I feel like an idiot all the time. Like I just deserve being stepped all over by anyone I ever had any type of feelings for, friend wise or more then friends. Anyone I ever seem to meet always turns out to be someone they said they weren't to begin with. Or at least pretended not to be. I just want to be happy. I just want to be treated like I mean ( Read more... )

Well I don't feel like going to work today, but oh well I will be off again tomorrow so whatever. I just don't care much for the people I am closng with. I wonder what next week schedule looks like. I guess I'll find out tonight. :sigh ( Read more... )

So I am really sad and alone lately. I wish I could feel differently about my life, I hope things can get better. One thing that is pretty positive is that so far I lost 14 pounds in the last 5 weeks yay for me. I'm on my way to a better looking me. But everything else seems to be sucking alot. I really need a huge hug from an attractive male. I ( Read more... )