the terror is in viewing the human ( Read more... )

I am currently reading "The Rape of Nanking: The forgotten Holocaust of World War Two". I also went outside in the woods last night to stare at the moon, witch is something that can only be done in winter, lest the leaves skew your view. Also last night i finally let the cat crawl under the covers to sleep with me after about a halfhour of ( Read more... )

I recently found out that my plans of going to school have crumbled on account of my not so flowery past and some damnstrict addmission requirements. Now my new plan is to stay working at my mundane factory job until I have enough money to successfully track and stalk Diamanda Galas. I've been working on my shopping list, I figure i've got enough ( Read more... )

A witch cast a spell on me now I Have not smoked a cigarrette since sunday night... I don't know if it'll last but i'm off to a good start.

I just ordered tickets for the Death In June concert on the 13th, I am sooooo glad it wasn't sold out. I also noticed that Elektronokat? and Tamion 12" are perfoming on the Dec. 4th, but unfortunately I'm going to miss out on that. I went shopping in milwakee yesterday, then I went out with a couple of friends later last night, then they left so I ( Read more... )

blah, can't drink the coffee fast enough this morning. Damn, I woke up from a nightmare about my Ex-girls' MOM!!! It was horrible, as she is a rather awful woman, in the dream I had stolen a couple of children, but they really liked kickin it with me and after a while I couldn't get rid of them they kept screaming "no no don't take us back!!!" and ( Read more... )

I get nosebleeds now from inhaling volatile chemical fumes at work. Only one day left then it's off to some other hellhole. My little strategie of working just hard enough to not get fired, but not enough to get put on really tedious jobs continues to work well for me. Today I was doing some awfull reprtitive job that I "couldn't keep up with", so ( Read more... )

O.K. Haven, here's my confession: I want my money for nothing and my chicks for free.

The question I find myself wondering about mostly nowadays. What have I done to myself? What have I become? What happened to the recognition of self, that comforting sense? It seems like I have lived my entire life finding few strange pleasures amid an endless storm of recurring nightmares, the last of witch has been a plummit of years that has ( Read more... )