We were talking and the fact had arisen that i don't act like myself when i am around other people. and i told him that i just can't, there's too much that hurts right now and if i'm myself then i'm going to let it all out and i really don't want to do that. i'm trying to sever our ties b/w each otehr b/c i don't want to have another relationship ( Read more... )

I'm begining to not care about whether or not Little Zach is going to prom with me. I mean it would be nice if he did but I don't see it happening anyitme soon. Oh well. Today was sooo much fun Me, brittany, and kassandra all went to the movies and the mall and stuff. it was cool. Brittany bought me and kassie fun dip. he he he me like fu dip. she ( Read more... )

I started again. that's all i have to say

Today sucks. Well, Zach still hasn't told me personally but it turns out that he ahs to go prom and i'm sort of an extra plus. i mean i'm sure he's not thinking that way b/c he's too cool and sweet, but have you ever watched those movies where they're like "did they fall in love with me b/c of the spell or b/c they really loved me" type of thing. i ( Read more... )

Well today was great I recovered from yesterday. And just so you know I asked Zach to prom yesterday, and i was told by Jamie that he was probably gonna say yes so i'm extremely happy. I'm so happy that i sat for a half hour learned to eat salad which makes me gag just so i can lose weight b4 prom, and so i don't embarrass Zach (if he says yes). ( Read more... )

Today I went to my friend Lee's house with my other friend Jamie. Well, things were going ok until Jamie and I got a little too close. He has a g/f and i feel so bad about it. But i couldn't help it he just kept on, ya know like pulling me towards him and all. I was actually really trying to stop, i mean i was walking away and all. I dunno. i sort ( Read more... )

i see you fallin ( Read more... )

there are so many things i want to say to some people but unfortunally i might hurt more than help. i just feel bad that my friend is having to go through so much and they don't even know it. they are so lost. i wish i could talk to them. i wanna say soooo much. god this is so frustrating. grrrrr

I'm not sure how to handle this crap with my friend Deniese. She has been my friend since the 2nd grade and she's been through so much. i just really know how to help. She was supposed to spend the week with me, then it dropped down to 3 days, then 1, and finally she was only able to spend 4 hours with me b/c this dumb ass she's only been living ( Read more... )

when i say today sucked i meant it. I dunno my "best friend" is being a total bitc to me and my friend sam and i'm not sure how to deal. I mean god!!! She never wants to hang out with us anymore just b/c we don't fit in her little click. i think she's being stupid. then my other friend deniese wasn't here today so i couldn't invite her to stay the ( Read more... )