Well then, hello to you (too) stranger. I haven't written in you in a while, haven't I? Well, my life has been still full of twists and turns. The last time I probably wrote something in you I was still 18. It's been a year, I've moved-- twice over-- and my life is still full of chaos. Not as much but still very boring, very plane and boresome ( Read more... )

It all started after the nonsense scnes of the dreams. I was with some guys (Steven, Britain, two other guys I forget their name) and we were thinking about hitting the road and having fun maybe altogether. Britain told me he was breaking up with one of the guys to be with me (and they of course were very jealous of this); the other frinds didn't ( Read more... )

This week... may be slightly bumpy for me. I just found out today and in fact confirmed it that Joel is Navid's "ex". He says they weren't really exs but still did stuff; yet again, I don't understand that, why/how could you do 'stuff' with people you aren't going out with? Navid probably doesn't really care that he's done it saying "it just ( Read more... )

Sometiems... I think to myself, wondering if I am the background character in this world or is the world the background? Everyone feels this way at sometime... or at least I think they do; we wonder about ourselves... question our purpose... wonder where we are going to tomorrow so we know where we are at in the present but none of these answers ( Read more... )

Well my life certainly does get more and more interesting with each event that passes me by, and yet things seem to recline into the abyss of boredom. Right now, my mind isn't focused on either of these things but rather... wondering.. how I should live my life? Should I become the cold and omnious person I used to be to shield myself from ( Read more... )

For some reason.. today my mind kept on recalling moments of my childhood.. the tragic parts of it that are now just scattered across the plains of my existence as scars... sad memories which exude a negative feeling that fills my heart. I think it was mostly due to the massive amount of sugar I got from just eating one of those brownies but I also ( Read more... )

Ever since I've been talking to Taylor, I have felt fronts of doubts and insecurities sweep over my mind. As I constantly venture forward, each step small and meticulous in the way it presses against the ground underneath, I constantly take time to reflect upon what I do and trying to simulate the events as accurately as possible. The general ( Read more... )

Okay sooo.. I try to befriend this dude who I met (who I recalled I tried to befriend in the past but I guess he was always too busy and it pissed me off eventually) who it seems like doesn't like me already. I dunno, he seemed to have put a lot of walls around him when I first met him, or maybe I just think that way. I don't know but it seems ( Read more... )

If I could, I would hold you ( Read more... )

I guess... I don't know very much about this world that I live in. The way reality works I know in other ways but the realities of how people work for me in the modern world remain a mystery to me. To live a life so laid back to where it seems like you're barely even there.. a ghost's touch... what's friendship's meaning and purpose in this world ( Read more... )