Well, yeah. I had a couple moments today that were pretty bad - near panic attack conditions. Hyperventilating, shakes, nausea, all that fun stuff. Endorphin withdrawal is fun ( Read more... )

Today becomes the first test of my new "resolution". It will likely be multiple tests - or one long test, depends on how you want to look at it. But it's already started trying me. Yesterday Jess came by the apartment to pick up some things she needed, clothes and the like. But there was one other thing that she picked up that blew me away; I ( Read more... )

( A good friend recommended I do this. )

It's funny, I think Jess leaving has caused me to use this journal for what journals are supposed to be used for - just getting thoughts out of my head and down somewhere that I can (hopefully) look at them more objectively. I know I've told a few people what happened, but here we go ( Read more... )

A couple people have commented in the last couple days about how I'm a strong person and I'll make it through this okay ( Read more... )

Well, it is definitely over between Jess and I. The look of total disgust on her face when I walked up to confront her told me that. Irrevocably over.

Yay mood swings. Utterly enraged one minute, depressed the next, melancholy the third. Unsurprisingly, it's been mostly rage. Talking to people about the situation rekindles the anger. Thinking about it when I'm alone hasn't quite brought me to tears, but close. And I know it's all normal reactions ( Read more... )

So yeah. Work has sucked for the last month or so, this week has been worse still, and to top it off, Jess dumped me today ( Read more... )

Hopefully everyone had a decent Tree Holocaust weekend... Christmahanukwanzaa or whatever you want to call it. I'm surprised - my usual November/December moodiness seems to have lifted early this year, not sure why. Got some cool stuff from friends, and big thanks to all of them, especially the Evans family for putting up with Jess and I for ( Read more... )

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