I am so proud of myself.  I wrote two programs last night with minimal assistance from my professor.  I felt so accomplished.  I have two more to write tomorrow, but I feel so confident now.  I was seriously sitting at the computer with BlueJ open and thinking on how I could get around taking this class and changing my minor.  Fast forward 30 ( Read more... )

Sometimes I think I'm not cut out for school. I used to be really good at it and it came so easily. It's so frustrating now. I suck at taking tests. I freeze up. I can remember bits and peices but I am so ridden with anxiety that I can't really recall what I am doing. It's freakin terrifying. This causes me to look like I'm not paying ( Read more... )

Manistee was deliciously fun.  Yes, yes it rained, but there was so much laughter inside those walls it didn't matter ( Read more... )

Starting back to school is always pretty hard.  This time I worked myself up so much- I got sick.  Some strange bug that makes me run fevers and feel like crap for about 2hrs and cough my fool head off when doing pretty much anything.  I stayed home from work a half a day on Tuesday and could not wake up on Wednesday.  I spent the day relaxing and ( Read more... )

I've been reading this blog online (mattlogelin.com).  It's profoundly sad, yet incredibly hopeful.  This guy's wife gave birth to their daughter and then a day later she died.  There he is, left alone with this newborn girl.  He's without his partner, but reminded of her everyday by this little baby.

Geez.  At least I don't have to be reminded or ( Read more... )

Life has been a little disappointing lately.  Things are not seeming to work out in my favor anymore.  I thought once I was financially stable and that stress was gone, things would start looking up for me.  Well, not so much.  I'm still stressed, but about things that are completely out of my control.  I hate, hate, hate, hate not feeling in ( Read more... )

I 'm sad today.  I can't help it.

I haven't been sleeping well.  I go to bed...correction, I pass out wherever I am at around 10pm and wake up around 7:30 am.  This is more than enough sleep for the general population- but for me I wake up exhausted.  Everyone is telling me I am sleeping too much.  Well- I have tried waking up earlier and can never get my muscles to work.  Thing is ( Read more... )

This apparently a Vonnegut  quote my brother is using to remember Miles ( Read more... )

Complete success on the Frog Island front.  On Saturday our tent was busier than New Holland and Grizzly Peak.  We had hoards of people coming back for almost everything.  By 5:30 (it ended at 6) we were out of almost everything.  And everyone behind the counter was pretty wasted.  Our homebrewed Saison was a freakin hit.  We had people from other ( Read more... )