I will not be using this journal anymore. My new journal name is _live4_luck . It will be friends only, so comment on the new one and I'll see what I can do. Also, new cell phone number. If you feel as if you need it, IM me at xxjess lennxx.

My life is such the big shit ball right now, that I cant even function. This is going to sound redicuously stupid, but I wish I was a bear so I could hybernate through certain parts of my life.

I was at the hospital this morning until five o' clock. Last night was seriously the night from hell. I wont go into everything but just pray for my family. Thanks to Cynthia and Mac for being the best friends a girl could have ( Read more... )

Wow, tonight was the greatest night that Ive had in a long time. All smiles here.

Late last night me, Cynth, Heather, and Mac decided we wanted to go to the beach. So early this morning (after about two hours of sleep) we got our happy tails up and headed that way. It was a gorgeous day down in FL. The ride down there was kind of quiet because none of us are truly morning ppl, but as the day progressed it got crazy. I love the ( Read more... )

I've started this entry three or four times, but end up erasing everything I write. I have so much to say but none of it is really worth saying. It's been another emotional night. I am so tired of caring and I am so tired of hurting. If I could go back in time, I wouldnt change a thing...I would erase it all. Being in love is the most retarded ( Read more... )

So today Cynthia, Heather, and I were being really good friends by baking Nick a cake for his 18th birthday. We also thought we would make him a basket of presents. We got him his favorite candy (gummy frogs), we arent old enough to buy his favorite drink so we got a thing of apple juice that favors a whiskey bottle and wrote whiskey on it, we got ( Read more... )

Happy Birthday to Nicholas Arroyo!!!!

The distance and my hearts to sand
Flowing through the hour glass
Time to let go of all we know
and break our hearts in stride.

I need you now more like yesterday
The last day I could see you smile.
For the last time turn out the lights
My life on standby.

So standby and watch
This fall away and fall apart.

First off, I had a whole entry typed and it got deleted. Better be glad Im in a typing mood ( Read more... )