So today I hurt. I hurt yesterday too but its weirder today. I have these fucked up bruises on my stomach and everything hurts. My damn jaw hurts which I dont get really except maybe they had to hold my jaw to hard to put the tube down my throat cause its only the right side that hurts really bad. But my tummy hurts. I just want to find one ( Read more... )

I went to the Doctors this morning and then to the hospital and got all registered for Fridays surgery. Im nervous and its getting worse with each passing minute. I know Im going to be okay but still all the horrible things run through your head. I talked to my mother today to and she was going to come down Friday for my surgery, I cried. Weve ( Read more... )

Another ST and I are debating the use of first and third person in writing on a game. He says there is no difference that first person is as widely used in forums as third. Am I insane or has it always been third for IC and first for OOC so that there is a line between the two. I would like thoughts and opinions on this please.

My gallbladder Doctor called this afternoon. I am getting my gallbladder removed on the 23rd of October. I was a lot shocked when the nurse called to tell me. I still am I suppose. But its coming out.

Just so everyone knows for the next few weeks I am going to be on an antibiotic that before has made me say strange things. The last time I took this I had a conversation with Ellie about wanting a puppy that went bark bark. It couldnt do any other noise, no woof, no yap but it had to go bark bark. She says we never had this full conversation but I ( Read more... )

So I saw the bariatric doctor last week. FINALLY. We found one to take my disability insurance. FINALLY. I also found a doctor to go to for my gallbladder, I see him Thursday. I think my wonderful Doctor Brown got a little nervous last month when I told him I keep having dreams of cutting myself open to either take my own gallbladder out or at ( Read more... )

I love my Maggy cause when Im down she sends me things like this...

http://www.collegehumor.com/video:1919269

Im tired. Inside, physically, emotionally, mentally. Im just tired and I really just want to say fuck it. Im done. I cant fight anymore. I dont want to even bother anymore. With life, with everything. I just want to lay down and go to sleep.

My Mischief died last night. I dont know why, I dont know what caused it but she was just curled in their cube and she was cold and gone. She was mine, she was the reason I even wanted or liked ferrets. We got her and Mayham at the same time and he was who I saw first. He looked like a giant rat, hell he still does but Mischief is the one that made ( Read more... )

Im tired of being nice.
Im tired of being forgiving.
Im tired of being sweet and understanding.
I take to much shit and Im not going to do it anymore.

I constantly let people talk shit.
I constantly just smile and let it go.
I ignore being fucked over.
I ignore the slander.
I ignore the bullshit.

Im done.