just when i thought i really could pull myself together for this last lap ( Read more... )

i feel like crying everyday ( Read more... )

i really wish we were with them, on the plane back to europe. i wish someone would take me away. i wish i never came back ( Read more... )

):
i've to last 19 more days
and i'm already feeling like i can't last any more than 3.

:'(

i really really feel like .
haiyarh don't even know how to put it in words.

i think suicidal people wake up everyday feeling life has no meaning.
i'm drawing closer and close to that every day, every morning afternoon or night or whenever i wake up.
but i don't want ( Read more... )

i really dread waking up ( Read more... )

last 3 weeks. my design is still not finalised. no idea what the final model will look like. hate drawing details. hate staring at the black cad screen all the time. no idea how i might render my stuff. just kill me now ( Read more... )

i dont want to feel tired everyday anymore.
i've forgotten what it's like to not be tired.
why is there no longer a day i can slp well, till i'm happy and i wake up feeling all rested and well.
no matter how long how short wherever i slp now, i dont even feel like i'm resting. just feels like... part of a routine.

something must be wrong. i don't eat i don't sleep and i don't achieve anything still. i hate my life.

and i know i'd going to be stuck here. until end of masters because i have no money to go to cool schools else where.
thanks life.

i hate feeling like i've been robbed of my sleep, my rest, my meal times, my bathing times, my health in general ( Read more... )

what's wrong
the way i work
the way i think
or what

please help me identify it

it can't be the course i chose
i know we go through hellx10 all the time
but it should be right
i dont want to be reading cases, writing essays
i don't want to be cutting bodies, memorising bacteria names
i don't want to be doing readings, writing more essay, speaking up in class
i ( Read more... )