I can't even fake it today. Its too hard. I don't know what to do.

Im so stressed out. I don't think im being irrational. I think its completely reasonable to want to know what's going on so that we can move forward with our plans. And I DO think that he is being unfair. And I DO think he is being disrespectful. And I DO think that he is not being a good friend. He's pulling the "you should be happy for me" bs.... ( Read more... )

I sit on the couch just staring at him. Watching him lay on his back on the floor trying to chew on his toes...or laying on his belly trying desperately to reach the empty water bottle that is just out of reach then rolling over and finding something else entertaining. He is the best thing that has ever happened to me. He has my heart and sould in ( Read more... )

How much crap do I have to put up with from him? How bad does he have to make me feel about myself before I stand up for myself and say enough. I've never felt like I as ever good enough for him. And now im ungrateful as well? A daughter should never feel 2nd rate and that's how I feel. I feel like his wife always comes first, no matter what. The ( Read more... )

I've been looking around online for wedding ideas lately. Seeing as im spending most of my time at home right now...I tend to be online a lot. Anyway....I think I have a wedding location now. And its getting me super excited about everything else. My grandma offered her backyard for the wedding...but the layout would make it difficult for the setup ( Read more... )

So, childbirth...not as scary as I thought. Its true what they say...contractions are the worst pain you'll ever feel in your life, but as soon as you hold your child none of it matters. Its almost as if the memory of the pain just goes away. Its seriously the most amazing thing in the world...I still can't believe he's here...and he's mine. He's ( Read more... )

Im pretty much terrified.

I don't even know if these are actual contractions...or if its something else......but everytime it happens, terror runs through my body at the thought of child birth. :-/

Am I really ready for this?

Sooo....no Cholestasis! No early delivery (kinda bummed about that haha), no going to kaiser for non stress tests twice a week, and no feeling like my body is failing him....im pretty excited.

I wish I could just hold him and know that nothing else that's happening to MY body will affect him. Gestational diabetes....cholestasis....what else? Apparently pregnancy is just not cut out for me. I'm so stressed out that I only slept like 3 hours last night. I just...::sigh:: I just want to go to the doctors for an appointment and have them ( Read more... )

I only have to poke my fingers 12 times a week instead of 28!! Yay ( Read more... )