omg! i just had the best b-day i've ever had! in fact, by far the best b-day i've ever had! it's funny how all of my life i always wanted just a lil something to show that someone somewhere was actually impacted by my birth & was grateful for it b/c i meant something to them. & what makes that ironic, is that i get that now, after we have split. ( Read more... )

so i have alot to report. first of all my b-day is coming up & i'm dreading it/looking forward to it. every yr i look forward to it knowing that i'm actually dreading it b/c each yr my expectations r apparently too much so i get disappointed & my b-day turns to shit. honestly, i just want a day where i don't have to make decisions & someone just ( Read more... )

i went up to the mall today b/c justin & i had plans to hang out & go c live free or die hard (great movie btw). i went up earlier than he did b/c i had some stuff to do & couldn't stand being home much longer. i hate being sick & not going anywhere b/c sometimes this place is actually what makes me sick. anyway... i started talkin to a friend of ( Read more... )

the situation w/ justin continues to get more & more complicated as we seem to have transformed into friends/fuck buddies. went out to the mall tonight w/ jb & hung out w/ him & a few other ppl. that's when justin showed ^ & attempted to hang out w/ us as well, but he says that he didn't feel wanted there so he wasn't there long. i really didn't ( Read more... )

i made the mistake of answering a question & in turn telling tristan about mine & justin's split thingy... not y, just that it'd happened. so now he's all over my ass trying to get me hooked up w/ one of our friends who recently went through a split after about a yr & as much of a great friend as that guy is he's not exactly what i would be looking ( Read more... )

it's funny how when u've lost so much & think u have no one/nowhere to turn to, an old friend shows ^ on a white horse coming to ur rescue. lol. however, odd that may seem that they're always there when u need them the most & not so much anymore when u don't... it's always a pleasant surprise. from the moment justin left today ^ until roughly 5:00 ( Read more... )

Patrick Thomas Conner


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it's amazing how something so catastrophic can have effect things in a way that it really shouldn't. how something horrible... so horrible that i dare not even say it out loud, can not only effect the individual, but the individual's entire life. a lil under half an hr ago i lost my best friend, my soul mate, my partner in everything, my fiancé, my ( Read more... )

Johnathan Tyler Ray Moore


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so i've started talkin to an old friend alot lately & i'm actually quite happy about it... despite our midnight crying sessions of lost & forgotten friends. he even gave me a lil inspiration to write a new piece. it's goin pretty well, surprisingly no writer's block yet, but i haven't quite found the perfect title for it. i went to the bookstore so ( Read more... )