For a good part of the day I have been looking on the inside, just a little inward reflection and I don't like some of items I see. I am going to incorporate more meditation into my routine. I read some of an Alan Watts book this morning and I am also going to try to surround myself with more positive energy. I just have to hold on till January, ( Read more... )

I want to get out. I am trying to hold on to these last couple of weeks but I ultimately want out. I believe I have endured enough and as much as I would like to endure more I don't believe it will do any good. It is time to pull the plug and move on. Eventually I will be in a better mood and therefore my posts will be better. I am sorta in a dark ( Read more... )

I have not written in this journal in a while. I have been going through some "life" things... as most of the people I know have been and I am just trying to find my groove. I am currently going through the motions and am looking for something else. A little excitement, adventure and something that is not so damn mundane. Doing the same shit ( Read more... )

I am currently in a class where they are teaching an outdated tool! Why would they teach a software version back? well because of money!! THis morning has sucked. I just feel off my game. I feeling like I don't want to do shit, and usually I try to make myself when I feel like that, however I not fighting it, I am giving into it. So I have checked ( Read more... )

I took a break from writing in this journal. I took a break because I couldn't find the time/privacy/space in my head and house to spread out and relax and get my thoughts organized well enough to write about them. Lately I have been feeling inspired, I caught a few sunrises on the way into work the last couple of weeks and I also am just feeling ( Read more... )

I guess I am keeping this journal open for a certain someone to contact me.

Hope you are ok.

Z

I took the day off today because... well my uncle passed last week and to be honest... I have not really dealt with it until I checked my voice mail from work and heard my mother's voice asking me what were my plans. I took the day off because to be honest, I don't know how to deal with death other than to say, "It's part of life and we are all ( Read more... )

As you all know now, I am in Cali and finished up our work out here and drove back to L.A. Scored a nice room at the Rennaissance hotel. KEWL SHIT! I am going to have to wake up hella early but I should rest well tonight. I managed to get 200 bucks out of my account and headed to the Bike. Well I wish I could tell you that I made out like a fat ( Read more... )

Just so everyone knows. I LOVE LAX (The airport). Gotta give props to the people out in Cali, they are on point! The women in heels, and jeans with those lingerie type tops! I was thoroughly impressed! I saw a grandmother, prob about late 50's that was bangin'. The chick was tight! I could not believe it. She was fit and had the tight jeans on, ( Read more... )