IT IS OFFICIALLY MY BIRTHDAY!!!!

I AM 22.

I AM OLD. I HAVE GREY HAIR. MY LIFE SUCKS. BUT I'M HAPPY ABOUT THAT. I LIKE SUCKING.

OH...I WISH I WERE DRUNK. OH WELL, I'LL JUST GET DRUNK. LATER. TODAY. FOR MY BDAY.

i'm his tari and i don't know how to fix it. i just want to be his friend and be close...but it just hurts him more. i will understand his decision, but that doesn't mean it won't hurt.

Why does he drain me so? He's nearly as bad as natalie when she's on one of her emotional-vampire kicks ( Read more... )

I'm at work. I'm bored. I'm tired. Very tired, actually. I miss Nat and James--james more, but i still sorta miss the girl too. :-p ( Read more... )

Okay, for my birthday someone needs to get me a shirt that says: "It's My Birthday: Spank Me" or some form of that.

make sure that it is a size small and is a cute color--i'm sure i'll find pants and whatnot to match.

Also--JASON! DUMP THE FUCKING TRASH WHEN YOU WORK SUNDAYS!!!!

Anyway, back work!

I get more depressed about coming to greencastle each week. the days seem longer and longer. i get more and more tired each day. i've started coming home and sleeping for two hours when i get off work before i can even move around for only another 3 hours after that before going to bed for the night. work seems to drag on forever. i utterly lack ( Read more... )

oh yeah, i almost forgot to mention that i'm officially not single. he's my boyfriend now. that makes me happy.

*sigh* today started out sorta shitty for reasons i don't even know....but a night of chatting with james (and you other people too) has made it a billion times better.

me happy now.

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i'm feeling very vulnerable right now. haven't felt this way toward james...really ever. not that i've never cared about him the way i do now, its just that now its more like DATE-ing than dating. i mean, its one thing to be 'dating' and another thing entirely to 'DATE.' yanno?

*sigh*

i wish i weren't so giddy about the whole thing right now.