I have no clue what has changed or more what caused this change,but it makes me smile to think of the joy I have felt lately. I have not done a whole lot but I have been having a whole lot of fun.I have spent the last few days and nights mostly nights I guess with some really good people .I have so much fun with these friends of mine and the best ( Read more... )

Today is crushing me into nothing

Man life is always so damn crazy and hard to understand.I wish I had a book of awnsers so when every I had a question i could look in my book and know that I was going to make the right choice or not.I am actually pretty happy still wich is a little bit of a suprise but .I have a real weird situation going on . with this one person who is ( Read more... )

I had an awesome week! I know i am not a very good person to hang out with alot of the time but I tried real hsrd to behave and I think I did well.All I have to say is even though I am sick now I am feeling like a person again.Oh and please excuse the gloating

I have a few bad Ideas . I have a couple good friends . I had alot of good times . I have always been a bit crazy and I was pretty proud of who I was now I have lost my mind and I think I lost contol how deep can you dig your own grave before you are too far down to climb back out of the hole . I am in over my head and before I can reach the ( Read more... )

Well I am having the time of my life . As always I fucked up and this time I was able to find out what it is like to spend a little time locked up. Oh Man I t so great showering in front of like 15 other guys, watching other inmates get the shit beat out of them ,spending 18 hours a day locked down in a room the size of a closet. I Got to meet the ( Read more... )

whats the deal? who is real?,how about we peel back a few layers of lies ,Open our Eyes and stop trying to diguise the truth with kind words of bullshit and kisses of shame. Is anything real or is it All just some sick game . ...................I am not actually in a mood as it may sound I just thought I might like to get out some thing crazy ( Read more... )

What the Hell! I say my life is motherfucking Crazy .I Don't know what is going on ever I am doing alright I think I have beeen very happy for the most part and I know what has done it for mwe but I am still very confused about what I am doing and what is going to happen . I have a hard time dealing with the fact bthat I am happy because it can end ( Read more... )

I am not having a good day and I don't think this is going to be much of an entry I am basically going to just vent and it probablly won't make any sense .I am so fucking cold right now.I hate the winter .It is so hard being on the other end of this mess i am now the one who needs to just let go How do you let go of tsomething that the only thing ( Read more... )

I am feeling pretty damn good today the last couple of days have left me feeling like I am going to be ok for a while I am not sure how long it will last but I am enjoying the way I feel today .I also got a new cell phone and now I feel like i am pretty cool I just hope to get some calls now and again.I am so in love and it hurts so much sometimes ( Read more... )