Well shit, hell, I don't know. My life is still stupid as hell and I still kinda wish I was dead. Can't get much worse, can't get much better. I think now might be the time to make a bunch of insanely poor life choices and suffer the consequences, or at least see where it gets me. On one hand I long to feel everything my ridiculous human existence ( Read more... )

Turns out my heart can only be taken once.
Fuck you.

Last night, emotions doing an odd thing to me. Me being an odd thing ( Read more... )

Does no one remember how important livejournal is or was? I did some browsing on here today and noted how many people used to write here. I also happened upon Eric Wise's journal, and of course a well of thoughts, concern, and emotion ( Read more... )

someone help me my life is a mess I hope 2012 is the end of the world for real because I don't think I can handle another year of "adulthood" please I don't know what the fuck I am doing with my life is becoming a waste of time I don't know what to do I want to be taken away I want to go away I want to do whatever I can to get rid of all this time ( Read more... )

om mani padme hum

body mind love wisdom whole

I can't find it.

GAH DAMMIT.
Why are they all so pretty?
I want all of them.
Can I have you, pretty please?

Well hell what the hell do I know. Not enough. Not a lot ( Read more... )

Write a lot, but usually it is nothing I can say.
Such is life!
Cat gone
Restraining order
Police
Courtrooms
Money
Leaving (running?)
Class
Work
Lessons
Intoxication
Sightings
Help
Philosophy makes my reality much more magic. Or real. But that really can't make any sense.
Now I get to be a ghost.

In every facet of my life, everyday, I keep finding myself missing. I am missing the point. I missed the deadline. I am missing my girl. I am missing love. I am missing old times. I am missing that house. I am missing the people in it. I miss my dog. I miss the way my mom used to be. I really miss my grandmother. I miss the ocean. I miss myself, ( Read more... )