I feel alot better now that things are looking a bit more on the up-side here.  Aside from the obvious problems with the local ARA chapter, things are ok.  At least they will find out what is wrong with my teeth today and i will probably get a refferal to a dental surgeon.  I will look into taking some kind of class of some sort online, i'm really ( Read more... )

i wish i really knew where i stood in her life now. I think she may just be trying to keep me on the backburner or just doesnt want to let me down hard.  i would rather be straight up broke up with than this torture, she left me for superficial reasons and put little to no hope in me or my abilities.  She wanted to break up over text and didn't ( Read more... )

i had an interview today that went down like the hindenburg, it was fucked up.  I know i'm a fuck-up but i hate it when people act like it's a joke that they gave me an interview.  I had this bitch laugh in my face during the interview for a night stocking job.  She told me i had no place in retail work and that i should work in restaurants.  Fuck ( Read more... )

I may be getting closer to getting my shit together. Jersey has not been so bad to me in general so far.  I know it will get alot crazier during the summer and the gunshots will be more aplenty, but that problem is down the way.  i am getting alot of assistance with everything in general, so hopefully it all works out for me here.

Well, me and staci are over as of now. I fuckin hate it, i wanted things to work out with someone for once.  Its very very very hard for me to be just friends because i just want to be mean and tell her off.  i feel like i'm not good enough for her and she's just telling me in a nice way (if possible).  i really like her, but it sucks when someone ( Read more... )

i am back to using LJ  i finally restored it after years of not using it.  I'm really not sure who uses it anymore and i had to cull some people out of my list.  To any of you who weren't aware i did my 2 year 2 month bit and finished all my time in prison. i was on a long probation stint and got out. i am free and clear so i decided to move to new ( Read more... )

the longer i live here the more i begin to feel sucked in...i genuinely hate this. i will just have to make a way. i wont get to so cal at this rate. but then i think is so cal even worth moving to? people always tell you when you hate where you live is that it's your problem and yours only. this has gone a little above and beyond that. it almost ( Read more... )

i got to spend another lovely stay in the CCNO hotel (the local jail). all over a fucked up licence check by the pigs. my p.o. tells me it's ok if i go to the surrounding counties of defiance county. so i go for a lil cruise in my newly acquired vehicle. so i'm driving along the highway and a city police officer pulls up behind me. he runs a ( Read more... )

i dont agree with my mother much, but i got to thinking the other day. she was right about one thing, and that was i am putting my health in the shitter. if you look at me i dont look that ill physically but there is alot wrong inside. i have a shot liver, weak lungs, horrible immune system, and bi-polar disorder. i am considering a lifestyle ( Read more... )

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