On paper, my life is better now than it has ever been. I'm more creatively fulfilled and rewarded and have more opportunities in front of me than I ever have. And somehow I find myself more depressed than I've been in years.

The autumn wind is a pirate.

I miss wanting.

Almost every sporadic post here for the past few years has simply been a means of making sure this journal doesn't get wiped out due to inactivity. I feel like Livejournal as a whole is probably on the verge of that anyway, but for now I can hold out hope that this time capsule will stay put ( Read more... )

I miss what the internet was back in 2004 or 2005. Let's destroy it.

The team is not going to carry you in on their shoulders. That beautiful girl you've been staring at doesn't really give a shit about you. You're not going to win the grand prize. Today is not taco day ( Read more... )

I've been experiencing mad upheaval as of late. My frail and ridiculous excuse for a love life is in tatters, and forcing me to evaluate some not-so-pretty things about myself, how selfish my goals are, and how much I care about the perceptions of others. Beyond that, my car also died the night of my inaugural stand-up show, and it's apparently ( Read more... )

"At sea a fellow comes out. Salt water is like wine, in that respect." -Herman Melville

It's true that I often feel lost at sea. Which honestly wouldn't be so bad ... if only my ship weren't on fire.

Most of my waking hours as of late have been spent either in my darkened room, or completely submerged in a bathtub full of water as hot as I can tolerate. I will hold my breath as long as I possibly can, until I feel like I might just pass out, then slowly force myself back to the surface. While playing this little game, I've noticed a spider ( Read more... )

I'm sick of pretending that some jokes don't cause me almost physical pain. I sometimes feel like all these things I'm working toward ... all these greater goals are just leading me nowhere. Underground maybe ( Read more... )

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