i ask you to take out your hand,
you put it out and i give you my heart,
you break it into peices,
i put it back together ready to give it to you again.

right now i dont now what i can believe, what i can think, i dont kno anything, i just dont know what the fuck is going on. all the things said, were they really true? i have no fucking idea. it seems they werent but i dont know for sure. i dont know wtf is going on anymore... x_x

i feel as tho i am drowning,
held down by so many things,
slowly killing me,
i look for a ray of hope,
i see nothing but darkness,
no light in sight,
just the water that engulfs me.

You say one last kiss
Can that kiss last a lifetime?
I want to be with you,
I want to hold onto you and never have to let go,
I dont want this to enhere i want it to live on,
I want to be with you because i love you with my whole heart

mreh... i have updated in a long ass time, newayz... things have gone to hell in some ways and gotten better in others. im not suicidal or nething people lol. u should all kno im not that stupid. i might have written those things but it was for a certain reason... im breaking up with jenn im gonna say it out bcuz idc nemore. she used me now that i ( Read more... )

meh... im updating cuz theres nuthin better 2 do... no1s online... except some annoyin long distance friends x_x owell. i might b seein jenn on thursday thanks to emma. ^_^ i havent really heard from her much at all... i guess ill jus find sumthin else 2 do... yea....

I looked into your eyes and saw forever ( Read more... )

fuck... im tryin 2 stay calm here... everything brings back memories of being with her... i havent seen her in almost 3 weeks. its tearing me apart from the inside. im afraid to walk around town because i have to many memories of being with her and it hurts to remember them. i have trouble eating... ive lost 5 pounds in less than a week... i rarely ( Read more... )

sitting here waiting to hear from kaitlyn to know if jenn's going 2 dm 2nite finally... god i miss her... i really need to see her... im lost w/o her... i havent felt this way about ne1 else b4... i know now that i cant live w/o her... this abscense of her is soo depressing... owell... i hope 2 c her 2nite...

well 2day is the 13th. me and jenn's 2 month (fuck grammar). and its been very odd... ive been very moody... switchin between bitchy and hyper within like a second. I havent talked 2 her really all day. and its been getting to me... owell... I MIGHT GET TO C HER FRIDAY!!!!! YAY! thanx 2 kaitlyn and her friend lizzie. ^_^ had 2 go 2 my dads house ( Read more... )