...so i can make a snow giraffe ( Read more... )

he left a shirt here that i sleep in because it smells like him and lets me sleep and makes me sad and comfortable at the same time and i feel pathetic. that was a runon sentence.

when i was in cleveland i used to have these stupid fantasies that he would come find me and prove t me in front of everyone that he was no longer a liar and we could be honest and happy and true ( Read more... )

i think i might seriously be the stupidest (is that a word) girl alive. i knew i would regret it before i even agreed. i just wish i would've read that before today. FUCK. i'm retarded. everyone told me, i didnt listen, now im stuck being the fake, closed-minded, not amy bitch for 5 and a half more years. and he can easily ruin my life forever ( Read more... )

i havn't cut myself since i was 15.

congratulations.

i dont like this right now ( Read more... )

i cant sleep knowing where you are and im sorry. i would trade you places in a minute if i could. i feel so useless because there's nothing i can do, but you will be alright. just another thing to add to your list of life experiences. just another thing to make you stronger. i wish i could see you. come home soon...

today my dad had a heart attack (actually he had it on monday but he didnt go to the hospital until today) then lanissa got in an accident and will be completely fucked for the next year or so. so saturday i will go to cleveland and give my mom a couple hundred bucks to help them through. i got really sick today on my way to school so i didnt go. ( Read more... )

i am not a violent person. i hate violence. it takes a whole fucking lot to hurt me enough to the point where i physically want to hurt you. but he keeps egging me on and on, making me embarassed to even be in his presence, saying such hurtfull things that are so far stretched but he tells me to shut-up when i start to explain the truth. and yes i ( Read more... )

stop thinking and breathe ( Read more... )