tonight I was driving back from a friends house. im listening to four winds by bright eyes, singing along to myself I get to this part ( Read more... )

I just wish sometimes I would die in my sleep, or that I was never born. Im so sick of my life. I'm sick of being left out, I'm sick of having the shittiest luck with boys, Im sick of being a third week. I'm sick of being stupid and making stupid decisions that got me here. I'm sick of being depressed. Im sick so much ( Read more... )

Had another of dream of Sean today, all I remember is seeing his face really close up. I wish I could remember what else happened.

Im gonna use it, totally gonna use this phrase.... FML
I just need to quit. Need to.

I feel so goddamn lost. I don't know where to pick up and go. I have the hardest time. I haven't broken down like this in so long. I wish I could have a clean slate but im so far from it.

I wish I could change, I wish I knew the step to how.

Today I've missed you so much, the tears came out of nowhere. Its not fair Sean, its not. But I'll see you tomorrow, tell you everything like you were really here. I love you and I can't stand this ( Read more... )

I don't how many posts I've made about how unmotivated I am, probably too many. I think being able to drive now is kinda a curse. Because I just want to be gone, out doing something all the time now. Instead of making art, well particularly instead of drawing. EHHHH ( Read more... )

I had a dream last night about Sean again. He was actually in it this time, instead of just his i guess presence. That made it worth only getting 4 hours of sleep.

I've made a plan, for me and me only. No one else included. No one else given a single thought ( Read more... )

I miss him. Not only Sean, who I'll always miss from now and on and forever. But I miss Logan too. I find myself thinking of both of them daily. I feel sometimes helpless because I can't do anything about Sean, him being sadly gone ( Read more... )

I R Dumb, not Baboon.