I wish for things to be different. Myself, my life, things. And yes I am aware that it takes me, myself and I to change them. I realize this often, I'm sure anyone that reads this realizes it as well. I set goals I do not make efforts toward. I need to make effort ( Read more... )

Your hotness is skateboarding in my apartment complex, fu.

I need to start taking my depression medicine again. I'm so stressed with all these emotions I just keep pushing back inside. I randomly melt down and feel so angry, so angry that I don't know what to do. I need motivation back, I need to change my life. It just feels so difficult to pick myself up.

these cuts make the lines between this world and the next closer.

I hate this place I'm in. Im so unmotivated, I don't know where to start. I don't really enjoy being around most people anymore. I'm sick of being stuck in this never ending cycle.

I still don't want to believe he's gone.

This week has been so hard with Sean passing away. Through all of our retardedness I will always love him. And I'm glad he frequently made me aware that he'd always love and care about me as well. Even if we weren't on good terms.

I miss him so much.

Life is not want I want it to be. Of course I'm the only one that can change that. I better get to it then.

My depression comes in waves. I really should be more responsible about it. Take my meds and all. Everytime I think everything is hunky dory, I fall back a little deeper. Im just lost in my imaginary world. I make everything worse, everything.

The Looking Glass Wars is a very nice book. A little slow at first. Some good parts cut a bit short but indeed a surprise at the end. Now onto reading Seeing Redd. Or maybe one of the 150+ books of mine I haven't read yet ( Read more... )