I thought things would work out for me but they haven't. Maybe it was just a false hope on my part. I'm not really feeling too good about myself lately and I have been in denial about this for a long time. Nothing can be done about my life at this point. I'm so afraid of being alone and now I am in the worst place ever. I feel like I have no one to ( Read more... )

Since I was young I have always felt different, like I'm not supposed to be a girl. As the years went by I learned to accept how I feel and live the normal lifestyle as a female. That was until I realized I was a lesbian than once again I had to go through acceptance but than one day I realized I'm not a lesbian at all. I'm a straight male trapped ( Read more... )

So me and Kristin are over now. Things happen... I don't know things kinda fell apart. We are still living together which is good, she is one of my best friends and she's very supportive. Things are alright. I'm finally in school and that's really good. I have a good well paying job that I absolutely love. things are finally going good for me. I go ( Read more... )

I have no idea but this just might be one of the last enteries that I write for awhile. I will never leave my livejournal it's just that in 11 days or less I am moving into my apartment (on the 9th floor... score!) and I won't be having internet for awhile since I don't have a computer as of yet. But so exciting... me and Robin.. moving out. All I ( Read more... )

Well it may seem to me at times that I have a great life. Something always seems to have a part of me and doesn't let me realm past it. I know that I have been this way my whole life. Since I first started it, I loved it even though I thought I didn't. It takes this part of me away. This part that seems to nag on my being, my life, my soul, my ( Read more... )

Well everything is finally working out for me. I have a job that I love that keeps me occupied and satisfied with myself not to mention that I make enough to finally move out with my best friend. Things are changing really fast and really quick. It's hard to say that I ever believed that this would happen to me so fast. I didn't think that it would ( Read more... )

I just had the craziest day yesterday. Yesterday totally helped me put my life into perspective and now I know what to do to fix all of these mistakes and mishaps that will save me. I think I have realized what the meaning of my life is in a small way. I could never explain quite in words what I mean. I think I'm just going to take in what I can ( Read more... )

Well I have no idea where to start. I've had an amazing couple of weeks. Pride week was last week and was totally insane. It started with the dykes vs divas baseball game which was really fun and Kris participated. We got high afterwards and that was also fun. Last week was fun and concluded of mostly sex which is what pride is really all about! So ( Read more... )

So I got fucked over again today. Pride week has started. Going to get high. Always high. Why.. why not? Tuesdays coming did you bring your coat? I live in a giant bucket. I like big shoes. I am not a femme. I am a person. I am whatever. Take me on a trip. I am a backpack. Complicated fag drama. Complicated dyke drama. Complicated straight drama. ( Read more... )

Just sooo fucking bored. It's crazy how long I wait for the summer with intentions that my plate is going to be constantly filled because all the stuff I wanted to do in school I can finally do because I have so much time on my hands. All the time I spent waiting for these summers I now reject in a sense. I have finally reached the summer that I ( Read more... )