i think i found the only music besides elvis that truly puts a smile on my face. i dont feel like saying who. but yeah. tonight was fun at panera. i can honestly say that it was one of the rare moments when everyone just got along and enjoyed each others company. i wish more nights like tonight existed. it would make work a stress free place for ( Read more... )

so i must say that i hate fucking 16 year olds that think drinking and doing drugs is cool. im sitting on TS right now listening to this bullshit. and its almost worth laughing over.

every time i hear these stories it makes me proud to be straight edge.

Love Is Suicide...

for some reason right now i just want to sit on my computer and listen to music. i miss my old days of being able to screw around on the computer and listen to my favorite bands. my thoughts these days arent worth filling the pages of this journal. i hung out with maryann at her grad party. it was akward. but i think i can learn to handle this ( Read more... )

anyways the past few months have been very strange and things have been happening that are very unlike me. i dont really feel the need to go into details. i will summarize because that seems more fun at three am ( Read more... )

why do i bother doing things that are so stupid. i know its going to hurt me but what can i say... im stupid. i just wanted someone to comment back. thats really all i asked for.

...lonely hearts breaking tonight.

i am frustrated with life right now. i want how i feel right now to go away. i cant even explain. i dont have the energy anymore ( Read more... )

somedays i wake up and i feel like everything will work out the way i wish it would. id give anythign to have that happen. then there are days when i wake up and i feel like nothing i do could change anyones mind. i know that at one point i thought i had all this figured out. but now im not so sure. my heart tells me something is there. that things ( Read more... )

"if you want to dance,
if she wants to lead
I'll go out of my way
to make you believe
That your love is all I need"

so life has really started to drag lately. nothing seems to be working out very well. i just feel like locking the door on my room and never coming out again. i feel like the things that are making me be socially active are pointless. what is the point of giving so much effort into something that will never matter. why do i always seem to do this ( Read more... )