I really don't want to go out tonight. I'm so stressed and anxious I feel physically sick. The only thing that would make me feel better is cutting open my stomach and ripping out my vital organs.
i'm listening to smashing pumpkins and dreaming about something beyond my reach. i'm lonely but its not him i miss, i was never happy being with him, it's something else, something i've never had. i don't know what i'm going to do now, i want to know what happiness tastes like.