happy holidays to everyone ( Read more... )

well, i found her. the adoption disclosure register here in ontario contacted me yesterday morning. they are going to send me all the information they are legally able to release to me in a letter - so when i get it, i'll try and post again ( Read more... )

I thought by spending more time in the real world and less time day dreaming, that things would get better for Ian and myself...

...Ian left me last night.

Nothing I did was good enough (and he feels the same way). My love was never enough for him...he was always telling me I made him feel unwanted and unattractive (and I feel the same way). I ( Read more... )

Apparently I've been going about posting from my cell the entirely WRONG way! but i'm on overnites again tonite so i had the opportunity to check it out and hopefully now i'll be able to post more often. although i must say, there is def. something to be said about the convenience of a keyboard! i really need to get myself a laptop and the net ( Read more... )

well it's been a few weeks and things are still shit in my little world. when it rain it pours...couldn't be more true for me ( Read more... )

i know it's been forever...
...i STILL do not have the internet at my house. we STILL have not painted and there is STILL a lot of stuff we have to do. sometimes when i just sit and ponder my house, i realize we haven't done much at all yet. and winter is coming. i'm hoping to at least start painting the living room and kitchen soon - i want it ( Read more... )

okay, so i didn't get to it the next day like i said i would in my last post, but i am making myself sit down and write about my weekend now, because i know if i procrastinate it any longer it will never happen. who knows when i'll have a computer again ( Read more... )

fucking cops!!!

yesterday while i was doing a routine transport on a youth from our facility to the closed facility across the city, the cop totally fucked me by running my plates.

here's the story:

one of our youth tried jumping out of a second story window. he was upset that his surety fell through (for a very stupid reason i might add) ( Read more... )

hey everyone ( Read more... )

hey everyone ( Read more... )