Well LJ its been some time since weve seen each other. I used you for years as my own personal therapist and I feel I have use for your services again. For months i've felt like a stranger in my own body, acting as if I am a different person. But I continue to ask myself if I am a different person, or in a 5 month slump. Gone is my happy go lucky ( Read more... )

I must say i have a great distaste for old people that think that everyone should wait on them hand and foot just because they are old. Like their contribution to society was so great that it warrants their "it's all about me" behavior. I just had a 92 year old male patient that refused to get onto the emergency room bed until i first laid 2 warm ( Read more... )

As you can tell by the date this is the first time ive recorded my thoughts since aaron died. I talked to my friends who ran the call on him when he died, and i believe ive finally found closure. But enough of that, lets catch up on what we have missed. Life is going pretty damn good right now, i feel like im on the comeback trail, which is a nice ( Read more... )

Must an existence with neither goal nor accomplishment mean that one is marked for death. He walked a path that kept him content but never satisfied. His purpose was far greater than he realized. As human beings we have an animalistic need for survival. A man sitting in the desert with no water to parch his thirst or his misery still can mutter the ( Read more... )

I think its the most erie feeling to see someone that you havent seen in awhile, only to find they no longer match what you had written down in your head. At one point you were so close to them that you could swear that you would always know them as person. Maybe the memories in my mind get dull but seeing someone who has completely changed with ( Read more... )

life does a good job of making you feel small and helpless sometimes.

Was wrestling with my dog and somehow we knocked our teeth together and boy does it hurt

happy easter

My daniel freeman application is due monday, and im still waiting for medix to finish my recommendation letter. I'll be severly bummed out if i dont get in. In a positive note i ended up with an A in my A&P and EKG classes. Not much has changed since i posted several months ago except that i finally had dinner with my mom the other night. It was ( Read more... )

Getting ready for my grave yard shift tonight. I cant what till i get a permanent station so i wont have to deal with this shit. Hopefully Ill get Rancho Santa Margarita, Seal Beach, or Mission Viejo if i do. Worked out like a dog today to make up for the 3 days i missed while at work. I just got a thing in the mail saying that i owe another 116 ( Read more... )

Just got off my 48 hour shift an hour late because my relief didnt show up untill 6am when their shift started. So when we got our call at 5:55 am we had to run it cause they werent there yet. Im starting to realize that there are a ton of selfish people at this company. And now cause our scheduler is a dumbass i have another shift starting at 9am ( Read more... )