What’s that? It’s cold and raining, and you have nowhere to sleep? And you need me to put you up? Well maybe you should have thought of that before you treated me like absolute garbage and then came to santa cruz with no money. It’s funny that you thought I was lying when i said I never want to talk to you ever again. You should have stayed where ( Read more... )

powerless is a good word to describe how i'm feeling right now. usually I value that because I understand that I don't always know what's best for me. but lately it just seems that everything that's happening is so wrong. almost as if it's happening to me by mistake.

I want a new job because i feel like all i do at target is get taken advantage of, and i really hate it. Why does it seem like the less you get paid, the harder you have to work? I just hate working part time for a big corporation and knowing i'm totally insignificant and expendable ( Read more... )

* go camping
* go to santa cruz
* visit camp for a shabbat
* have a garage sale
* finish reading the tipping point
* read les misérables
* read the communist manifesto
* make new friends
* apply to santa cruz for winter 2010
* look for a new/2nd job

0 - days ive gone this summer without taking a nap ( Read more... )

* go camping ( Read more... )

12 - movies i've seen
4 - parties i've been to
4 1/2 - people i've made out with while under the influence of alcohol (one person didn't kiss back)
2 - days since i've spoken to dillon
15 - times I've cried (probably)

more later.

i've burned way too many bridges in this town. I hate going to public places because i don't want to risk seeing someone that hates me. I want to leave as soon as possible so i can start a new life somewhere else. I want to be given the chance to turn over a new leaf and become a better person instead of just doing shitty things to people and ( Read more... )

Also, im getting my hair cut really short tomorrow.

I hate when people hold grudges only when it's convenient to. When they need to make an excuse for something. You can't be selective about being mad about stuff. If you're going to be mad, then be mad. But if you're not then don't pretend to be so that you can convince yourself of something. Being dishonest to me is one thing, but being dishonest ( Read more... )