I went to my second NA meeting tonight. Why NA? Why not AA? Well. NA deals with the disease of addiction, AA just deals with alcohol. And my problem does not focus mainly on alcohol ( Read more... )

I can't remember exactly how I woke up this morning. Whether it was by myself or if the doctor woke me. Either way, I woke up in the hospital where I was born this morning. In my costume. Under a blanket from my psuedo-boyfriend's house. Missing one of my slippers. Without my coat or purse or cell phone. But my sequins were still attached ( Read more... )

I guess when you go to the gas station at quarter til two in the morning, get one king size pack of m & m's, one king sized pack of peanut m & m's, a package of beef jerky and two packs of cigarettes, you might come off as depressed ( Read more... )

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One of the best things in life:

Petting my kitten until she goes boneless, completely limp with pleasure. She's one of the softest things I have ever touched. And she purrs. And sometimes, she follows me around the house like a shadow...which is vaguely annoying...but nice.

My counselor and I spent the session yesterday discussing how to describe what it is I feel. I want to be able to help people who haven't felt like this understand. It's hard ( Read more... )

Just needed to repeat this again.

May God stand between you and harm in all the empty places where you must walk.

Can you say that to yourself?  Like a prayer?

I feel pathetic tonight. Looking at my life....just pathetic ( Read more... )

Last Monday....I was in a car accident. Just a little one. I was stopped at a red light. The guy coming up behind did not quite stop...until he hit my car. Car's fine. The incident forced me to see my chiropractor again...whom I have not gone to since he fired me/I quit...whichever ( Read more... )

I won $50 at the casino on Thursday. So yesterday I went out and got myself two pairs of jeans that actually fit me. Previously, all the jeans I owned were two sizes too big. And I didn't used to care back in high school when I started buying jeans too big...but now...I like giving the world some indication that I may in fact have an ass. And ( Read more... )