Yesterday was what I've taken to refering to as my "not-wedding." I discovered this last week that the gm of my store didn't even know that I had at any point been engaged, let alone that I am no longer engaged. That was funny...'cause I talk about it freely all the time. And the man knows I've been going to counseling for my depression ( Read more... )

On monday night, I stopped by Barnes and Nobles and used the gift card my girls had given me as a birthday gift.  I bought a book written by Thomas Moore, a former Catholic monk called Dark Nights of the Soul.  I had read previously his book called The Soul of Sex.  I am merely 80 pages into this book and already feel better about my life.

Mostly, ( Read more... )

I started writing an entry.

But even I couldn't take how whiny it sounded.

I have a kitten. Her name is Isis ( Read more... )

Ancient Egyptian blessing or Babylon Five quote, either way:

May God stand between you and harm in all the empty places where you must walk.

It speaks to me.  Perhaps because so often I feel empty.  I miss my old self so much some days.  It's almost incomprehensible to me that I've come so far from what I was, and have so far to go toward what I ( Read more... )

So. I've had my license for about six years now. Not a single speeding ticket or any other such "moving violation" in such time. Until about two and a half weeks ago. When I got busted for talking on my cell phone ( Read more... )

I'm home briefly from Buffalo. Dry run at the new restuarant went well. I think. It was a lot of long hours and it was exhausting and stressful, but I think this next week will be better :) Plus Tracy managed to give me Friday night and Saturday off. I can go to Sara's bachlorette party and bridal shower. Yay ( Read more... )

I have internet access again. Yay! These past few weeks have been going well. I've been socailizing more, both local and long distance via phone. I am also pretty much achieving my eat two meals a day goal. Matt thinks I've put some weight back on. I'm less "ribby ( Read more... )

Well...my computer stopped working. I think the power supply blew. Or the fan, which likes to run loudly anyhow blew, and then the power supply overheated and blew. Either way, when you hit the button to turn the thing on, nothing happens. I'm borrowing my paren'ts internet right now. I don't know when I'll get regualar internet access again ( Read more... )

I just got back from counseling. I spent most of the time crying. We discussed Matt moving out and what happens next. Not entirely sure when that's going to be. By August though. He's going to move to Seatle. I can't afford to live by myself. I can't imagine anyone who would want to live with me. Roommate wise. I am a horrible house ( Read more... )