I'm going to grin and bear it, Or so I hope. The fear can't grip me any longer, it's getting ridicoulous. I need to be free of it. I used to be someone who could laugh, make anyone laugh. Tired of living in my shadow, I need out. No more can this be considered normal. Sure I've got certain health issues that make a little nervous, but hell I ain't ( Read more... )

...So..welcome back to NH, and back with the rents..oh the rents..

Calm down, I tell myself that hourly now. I don't really think it should be that way. I'd like to think, waking up in the morning wouldn't merit me to give myself a pep talk. I'd like to think, that physical pain didn't feel better then emotional stress. Nothing is ever as it seems, everythings up to chance. I'm not saying don't take risks, how ( Read more... )

Fuck,fuck,fuck....

And I feel like I'm falling, farther every day.....

Why is it, when you should be super excited...it just doesn't happen? I am a firm believer that tommorrow is a fresh start or should be, because otherwise what the fuck( pardon my obscene french) do we have to live for? Because if tommorrow isn't it, then where's the point. I just don't know, yes, this would be a drunk rant, congrats to me!

Life really does have this mysterious balance to it. I wouldn't be able to understand it if I tried. Moved out of my parents, it's different. Hell I even moved out of NH, though I'm thinking...why Maine?..But then I regress and begin to ponder why not, Maine. It is rather cold, and rather dull. But at the same time it is peaceful, and quiet. I will ( Read more... )

Three fuckin jobs..I need new tires....alignment even? I'm tired, I love Rocky. I wish he was closer...You will always win some lose some. It's how life goes. I'm scared of dying. I don't want things to end suddenly ever. This entry should make no sense in the way of it's order. I just needed to get things out. I should go sleep before I think too ( Read more... )

...$237.00 is not the magic number by FAR....

Ugh....Winter is arriving tonight I guess,...great? I want summer..I love summer. Didn't realize how much till now. Layers and layers of clothes just aren't appealing it takes extra minutes out of an already packed day ( Read more... )

...So...I love when computers are down, damnit. Petsmart oh petsmart. There was honestly a point to this entry..but I no longer know now.