Here we are again. The thoughts a huge untidy blur. My mind racing at a crawl, and then at hundreds of miles an hour. There's some Bush blaring in the room at the moment. I honestly don't know how to put these thoughts together. There's just so much to sort out, so much to understand. I don't feel like I am whole. I feel like a piece of me is ( Read more... )

Tensions are running high and unhealthy at the house. I'm not amused. I think my parents are working out of the house tomorrow, I can only imagine the drama I'm going to encounter. Today I've already encountered plenty of bullshit, nonsense, and rediculous actions. I dont know what to think. It's been an irritating day.

Sometimes i just want to be the only one in the world, nobody around to bother me for change, to bug me about some bullshit, to tell me the latest gossip, to be the creator of drama, even my very presence tends to bring some sort of uncertainty to a situation, I'm a loose cannon, a wild card you might say. Just goddammit let things straighten out. ( Read more... )

A lot of girls really bother me. I try to be nice, but some people do stupid shit and try so hard to be cool. It kills me. Or maybe it's just me being pessimistic. I'm not quite sure. It's probably why I went from having sex with around 4 or 5 girls in a month (the same girls, not 4 or 5 new per month. I'm not that cool) to none in two months. I'm ( Read more... )

Everynight before I go to bed you cross my mind, sometimes I dream about you, and as I remember the past, I realize I miss you, so much. But so many things have happend, It's just not possible.

I think there is something we all need to form some sort of understanding of. That being- that life, in small capsules of its entirety, is only problematic if and when it is compared with the lives of others ( Read more... )

My life is like a rollercoaster, excitement at every turn with the occasional level moment. No matter what happens, my life is good times. Self centered always looking to move on up. Always looking for that one thing to set everything off and the "master plan" into action. Whatever that may be. I have no complaints, regrets that aren't even regrets ( Read more... )

It's crazy when you look at all the people jumping in and out of your life. Here one minute, gone the next. Miniscule amounts of time in the entire timeline of time itself. Yet, for those few minutes you're lost, so lost you don't know what to do with yourself, you lay, you wait, you ponder, you sleep, then you get over, and find new things to do, ( Read more... )

Driving alone down city streets, post emo, electronic, progressive rock throwing out the laid back flows trickling into my ears, as the thoughts race through my mind. Myself rethinking out every scenario possible. Thinking about the past, present and future. Thinking out ways to make a difference, ways to keep my senses stimulated, ways to keep ( Read more... )

The best forms of writing come from extreme bouts and tangles with emotion. When the body is under some sort of stressor. This is when true literary genius comes about. This when the true story shall be told. My mind and body have been in such a state for awhile, yet something is not right. I cannot write long enough to let the thoughts find their ( Read more... )