my mantra when I was a child was "does this stain?", "this" usually filled in with the current food item that was splattered on me. this was always asked because I was always spilling things on my clothes. i was a messy child (um, I still am, when it comes to my room) Well, today, one of the girls I was babysitting came up to me with jelly on her ( Read more... )

I grow more weary with every day it seems. Some days are better than others. I'm glad I'm getting ready to move. I don't know how much more "nannying" i could take. I thank God that this is not my life... Or my job for the next year. I also don't think i can handle the lack of Arin anymore. Paso is a constant reminder of him, and every time I think ( Read more... )

My dream sky always whispers of sun ( Read more... )

the summer draws to a close, but the fall holds so many new and exciting things i don't mind the seasons changing...

Things are going to change in the next few years. What in words seems like a long time, I know will fly by like the last 2 years of my life. Isn’t it bad to wish you were still in your teens, when they were only 4 months ago? You aren’t supposed to be looking back on those ages until at least 30. Right? Then what’s wrong with me? I look in the ( Read more... )

Well for all of you out there who were not happy with the whole Arin thing... it's official. We chatted last night, and we have decided to cut all contact with each other for exactly a year. No contact what-so-ever. No exceptions except death, or dying. I'm looking forward to a year from now. August 8th 2007. Can you imagine not speaking to someone ( Read more... )

Well I might be pushing back my leave date for LA, yet again. Luke's coming home on leave before being shipped off to Kuwait. Then the fam is going to Tahoe ALL together. Yeah. The final count will be, Laura sitting around for 6 months. Yeah. Wow ( Read more... )

I just had the most emotionally racking evening to date ( Read more... )

I'm feeling really down right now and all I want to do is talk to my best friend in Idaho... but for some reason we have become astranged. He won't find the time for me anymore and I don't know why...

Pageant drama is making my life feel pointless, plus the fact that I can't even talk to him. It hurts.

He and I were born 2 months apart, him being the elder of the 2 of us, and so, inevitably, we grew up together. He lived in the middle of Oregon, which made him the closest cousin we had, seeing that all the others lived in So Cal. The drive was about 2.5 hours to each other’s house, but our families managed summer trips and Christmas vacations. ( Read more... )