i really don't know anymore. i can't explain it, because eyes and ears are everywhere. unavoidable. just like me.
i want away.
a way out.

i'm not happy.
neither is he.
neither is she.
neither is anyone else.

mom's dying.
so am i.

we sing
we scream
we hold hands and we dream

i miss her.

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after about thirty bowls smoked and thirty life-changing occurrences in one day, i'm pretty sure today didn't exist.

convinced.

so's kat. my good friend, dat Kat.

yes. we're both there. giggling at your expencse.

by the way. join WE HATE CAIT. because we do. and so do you.

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we'll break it down into inhales and exhales, ones and zeros, making the day go by second by second, instead of hourly.

in through yours and out of mine
bodies moving, dance in time
eyes stare outward, all alone
each a kingdom for its throne

worship the music
so freedom rings

listen carefully

as beauty sings:
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i didn't take that note out of my pocket until i gave the jacket to jess.

and now it's hidden. like all my memories.
safe.

i kept everything she gave me. i even sat in front of the mirror last week putting the glitter lipstick on and wiping it off, putting it on again. smiling, not at myself, but at my memory.

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