Well last night I didn't sleep at all. I thought about everything and practically psychoanalysed the past 2 months. It resulted in me ringing somebody and asking them something that resulted in me getting really upset and pissed at a situation that occured before the shit hit the fan completely. She thought i'd taken something the wrong was but it ( Read more... )

Stress does stupid things to my head. It's making me question everything anybodys ever said to me. I don't like this shit! It's getting to the point where I can't physically or mentally focus on anything. I need to chill out ( Read more... )

The events of the past week have made me realise a few things ( Read more... )

I'm sat in college again, feeling unhappy to say the least. The urges have hit me and the panic attacks have started, how am I supposed to act "normal" with all this shit going on? I'm too young to understand... I don't think I can do this alone. The world is scary and is driving me insane ( Read more... )

I sit in this Health & Social care lesson and sink into my deepest darkest thoughts again and it scares me a little bit, it's getting harder and harder to breathe. I lay awake at night and question my own exsistance at times, why me?. It hurts too much I try and forget every mark and scar he ever left me with. It worries me a little to know what ( Read more... )

The people at Bede will learn one today that talking that much shit will get them no-where. Fuck 'em!

I've always questioned why it was me and why he kept doing it. I've analysed it so many times the pictures edges are blurry, I thought i'd see if writing the whole story from start to finish helps me understand and possibly forgive him for it all ( Read more... )

Beat Bullying 2006 starts soon...heres 2004s poem. I will be on stage, organising events as normal. Normal contact details apply ( Read more... )

After talking to one of my friends I have come to the decision that i'm going to go and see the doctor about being referred to a counsellour, should have done it sooner but never mind ( Read more... )

A diary entry from 4 weeks ago ( Read more... )