too all my ex's who fucked me over who made me not have any trust in anyone. fuck the exgirlfriends who cant get over their ex boyfriends and try to ruin peoples lives. I dont know what the fuck to believe anymore. theres no reason to lie to me i didnt fucking do anything wrong and i dont desreve to be hurt. i fucking love my boyfriend to death and ( Read more... )

so yeah i have not felt this in so so so so long. i dont know if i ever have felt this good in my whole entire life. I dont kow how i got so lucky. I think ideserved him through all the sht ive been through. We started out as good good friends and now we are just amazing. He treats me amazing. He treats my friends amazing. Ive never had this many ( Read more... )

so my life has been so amazing. my friends are beautiful i love the girls so much and of course dave. ive been having so much fun up at college. i party too much but my grades are really good so oh well. the boy situation isnt that bad. ive been talking to a nice guy. hes real hot too. score jenn. haha well see what happens i dont even care. ( Read more... )

yeah i have nothing better to do anymore. i just sit here and stare at my computer and listen to music. i cant cry and i dont feel anything. im upset about everything. phil. myself and my friends. i just feel like shit. im so so sad inside and nothing happens it just stays in there. i feel so bad for making people sad. and i just hate myself right ( Read more... )

i dont even know why i still check this. i have like 2 friends who dont even write anything. but. i quit my job because it fucking sucked. i cant wait for school. i hate being home for the summer. especially cause i cant see my baby as much. I miss phil alot. i just want to be back at school so i can be with him. i hate this journal thing. bye.

phil is so cute and i miss him.

so My pop pop passed away. im really sad. its hard to believe. But he was suffering. but still it happened so sudeen and way to fast. im jjust so dead and out of it. and of course me and phil are prolly no more so that isnt helping me at all. its the last thing i need. i had a really amazing time last night but i cant even think about that right ( Read more... )

ok heres whats been going on with me. I love college soooo much. Its so hard to believe that im actually here i live here im at college this is what you think about when your a little kid. Its just crazy when you think about it but yeah i love it soooo much. But theres been so much drama. Phil asked me out but i cant be in a relationship for so ( Read more... )

its so sad that i always have to depend on someone. I hate being alone. its the worst feeling ever. i dont knwo what to do anymore. people are so shallow. i wish i could be perfect so he would fucking like me. i hate it . we are supposed to be friends and he has his fucking lame ass fucking friends come up and he lets them fucking talk shit on me. ( Read more... )

no not really. i just like this song. but yeah everythings been alright i guess. college is amazing. i dont even know what to say. but yeah theres this guy i really like. hes such an awesome friend. and hes so hott and amazing. Hes just a really really good guy. unfortunately i like him alot. and thats never good. so yeah i occasionally get upset. ( Read more... )