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Paris Is Burning
I’ve never felt quite this alone. Although physically I’m associated with numerous persons, I feel distant mentally. I don’t understand as to why I’ve been caught under this perspective of thinking; however, I do realize its not a new feeling. Rather it’s a feeling I’ve been trying to avoid acknowledging. I try to fill this void; however, its not ( Read more... ) -
Running In Circles
I'm angry, and I'm completely and utterly broken. I'm barely treading the path of insanity. Stuck in a cycle that has me suffocating to no end. My limbs black and blue. I'm a lost cause, separated from even the most basic crowds, my voice non existent. I don't know why I'm constantly in a bad mood, why I rebuke any and all company. I'm just tired ( Read more... ) -
Because Bad Endings Make For Better Beginnings
In denial, its not that I can't absorb it; but rather, I can't accept that yes I `was hurt. Its best to look over it and absorb it, and finally to let go. It kills me to talk about all of this because for one it lowers my self esteem, two I feel its redundant, and three it's pathetic. A new year about to begin, its best to revisit all these events ( Read more... ) -
You're Hurting Me
I don't know why its been irking me so much lately, but as a lot of you know I've become completely obsessed with being accurate in diction and grammar. It's not as if I am perfect, but lately I've been just get so temperamental. It's not a good thing at all I know, but for some reason there's always something that just nudges me to the edge. No I' ( Read more... ) -
Clearing My Head
I'm wondering as to why I can never catch up to time. So many thoughts scrambling through my mind, let me attempt to somehow organize this dysfunctional process. Referencing back to time, and the photo album episode only a few episodes ago. After a quite of analysis I realize why the whole experience consists of such a ghostly haunting appeal, I ( Read more... ) -
Love Me Mercilessly
A christmas miracle? Could it really be snowing, why yes indeed an early Christmas present. Radical changes in the environment, and patterns of temperature and climate can only point to one possible problem; global warming. I was so inspired by the lecture I attended since I am also a fellow environmentalist/ecologist I decided to venture in and ( Read more... ) -
Time Goes By and Now Here We Are
Its starting to finally feel as though I'm not constantly in a battle, struggling against myself. As if I have dropped my weapons to embrace whoever is left standing after the dust and gloom of ages - reference to Maya Angelou. Flipping through the pages of an old photo album, a compilation of the first five or six years of my life. A particular ( Read more... ) -
Adrenaline in My Veins
I could use a cigarette right now, something to pump some nicotine in my veins. Something that can calm me down. I've been hyperventilating all day, too much anxiety. I don't like being in this condition, get me out of here. Hurry, damsel in distress haha. Its thanksgiving break, what a blessing ( Read more... ) -
Autumn Clutter
Its strange how history repeats itself, again and again...and once again. Thanksgiving break and I honestly couldn't be happier. A whole week to gorge myself on the luxury of something so simple it kills me, sleep. My little toes are freezing, but I finally dragged myself to this blog. I've been meaning to write for the past week or so, so many ( Read more... ) -
Crop Circles in the Dust
God sometimes I wonder if I'm as bad as those christian missionaries who relentlessly try to convert you, ya those. They're like my worst nightmare, kindof reminds me of that one morning. I was coming home after walking around, it was early morning. I like the feeling of walking on the trails early morning, especially when no one else is around, ( Read more... )