its an anagram. you figure it out. i have a sleeping disorder. if only it were narcolepsy. if only. it troubles me that i cannot control my dreams and that i have no idea how those particular dreamie neurons fire in my brain. is there a constant movie going on behind my eyes that i am not aware of when awake? how am i seeing these things withmy ( Read more... )

been staring at this screen for far too long. insomnia days are back again ( Read more... )

i am a very angry person. quite the ball of livid rage, disappointment, and hate. whom is all of this negativity directed against? throw a fucking rock. im generation x. baby. i was raised on nintendo, bad fast food, john hughes, john waters, the smurfs, rainbow brite and soap operas. bad situation. who cares?i am al pacino. i am courtney love. i ( Read more... )

not to whine, but good christ almighty, if i have to do this on my own it sure would be a fucking plus if i could sleep more than 2 hours a night. im losing my mind. im sure this is an exaggeration but then again one never knows does one? i am keeping myself alive with once upon a times. im keeping myself alive wondering if all of my afflictions ( Read more... )

what can i say, here. im sitting wrapped up in a blanket smothered in cigarette burns and wisely smoking a cigarette. i am seriously considering beginning to go to NA meetings with nick and his mom because apparantly i am predisposed to have this disease for the rest of my natural life and i just have to take it day by day and so forth and so on ( Read more... )