so im sitting here now 27 years old and i need to just put my thoughts somewhere.So i remembered my dear old livejournal, you are the only thing that i can vent to. everyone else is sick of hearing about it and they all say they same ol things, even though they are accurate, i just cant hear it anymore. about 3 years ago i was runnin wild and free ( Read more... )

lol, wow. i cant believe this still exists!!!!!! its so trippy!! i googled myself lol and i found this. reading these entries was the weirdest thing ever. some of this stuff i dont even remember! but it happened lol and i documented it. i feel so old now. im 26............ wow. the years have flown by. im so glad i had this journal and so glad its ( Read more... )

hi. its been a good 4 months now since marc left. and i gotta say im ok. im better then ok im finally happy and comfortable, i love my new place, i have my own phone in my own name, i get along super great with my roomate and we are fixing up our house rather nicely and she got a pool table! i just got a kitten and even my job is better!im still a ( Read more... )

im back again. i know no one reads this, thats why im writing in it. marc and i have broken up. 2 and a half years, and now its over. i guess you could say im going to a major transion right now. i am letting go of something, someone who has been my everything, everthing i did was for him waiting for him to see something i dont think he ever will. ( Read more... )

i've had enough of all these emotional updates lol. everything is back to normal. so now ill tell ya all the other stuff. like how im finally in school! how weird is that. i never thought i'd do it, but i did. im in school, college. now i really really need to get my license. it really shouldnt be that hard. like everything right now has the ( Read more... )

sorry joe cam over unexpectantly and i couldnt let him read what i was writing. that the shittiest part of it all, marc and i decided to try and work things out. we didnt break up and i forgave him but im still hurt you know? and i cant tell anyone, i mean i can i just dont want to. im embarassed and ashamed and everyone will just get mad. like ( Read more... )

ok so. i know i dont ever write in this, but i really have nothing else to confide in, not about this. and besides i've documented practically all the other major events in my life, and this is pretty major.ok here goes ( Read more... )

well marc came back and things are super,back to normal, i wish i could say that it would be like this for a long time, but he is leaving me once again (for real) in September sometime. he is joining the military :( his base will be in florida, ill be in california, he'll be gone a a year and a half. and needless to say we're not staying together ( Read more... )

im soooo sad and depressed about marc being gone, i dont know what to do with myself! all day i cry and mope around. im sad, none of my friends like me anymore, my work wants to fire me cuz im sad all day and dont work hard enough anymore.i dont know if i can do this anymore, all this waiting and wondering. oh im sooooo sad! so very sad! cant ( Read more... )

i hate this! i cant wait until these stupid 3 monthes are over and marc is back here in california. i am too stressed out with him gone. im too fucking sensitive and i hate it! if he doesnt call me i get all sad and paranoid cuz im fucking retarded! and i havent talked to him in like forever, ( forever not even being that long by the way, im just ( Read more... )