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Nov 10, 2009 04:07

I've been sleeping for almost 2 days straight now. The only reason I'm out of bed is because my back hurts so bad I can hardly stand it. I fall asleep and dream. Dreams are always better than life. I wake up and I'm back here. I'm back at my brother's. I'm back by myself in a small basement room with nothing but what I have in my room and ( Read more... )

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nameleswanderer November 10 2009, 22:49:03 UTC

Please call any of the numbers below. There are so many reasons to see another day. Just watch an entire sunrise. The whole thing. You do have people that care about you. Your family will miss you. You do have friends. A new day always brings possibilities and a new chance to do things the way you want. You have so much ability that I admire. You have so much potential and I know you can reach many goals. Help is here.

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divamatrix November 11 2009, 19:39:20 UTC

Too late. My brother told me to my face that he doesn't think I have any mental illness and that I'm just faking it because I'm lazy.

So yeah.. family missing me? I doubt that.

Family nameleswanderer November 11 2009, 22:49:40 UTC

Family is a LOT more than just someone who was born to the same parents. Family are those who love you regardless and feel an attachment to you no matter where you are. I was lucky enough to have been born with a sister, but very lucky that I have found some of my non-blood sisters over the years. You just may not know who all your family members are, but they exist. None of us exist alone. We are all human. There are 6.7 billion of US. That includes you. One less doesn't make it better. One less is a loss for everyone. People can learn so much from you. I admire so much about you. What you have persevered through is amazing. To survive when others only dismiss you shows your strength and their weakness. Watch the sunrise tomorrow and prove your "brother" wrong.

urbansloth November 15 2009, 05:21:48 UTC

Family is not the source for comfort in knowing you're wanted. If they have been around during your rough times, they might still be angry. Been there on the family being so angry with me they don't want to talk to me when I need them most. But you don't know how many other people do want you around. You never know when you've made someone laugh, or brightened their day. From the shit I've seen your brother post, he's an angry person. I wish you could find a place that would support you. If you are trying to heal, even the smallest inconsiderate remarks resonate much louder than they really are. You know this, I know you do. If you want to stop reading now, feel free, because I may me way off. But the things you are eager to have (family, dogs, kids) for this moment only you might not have, but doesn't mean you won't ever have. WE have alot in common with achieving great things that then become too overwhelming. It's maybe-to steal a phrase-nice to be a little less unimpressive for awhile. Don't cling to nostalgia. It causes more pain ( ... )