I am still so angry about everything. When you asked me about it and I was at loss of words for an explanation, that's when it came flooding out. I used to think I was angry and hurt, but over it. But I am still so angry at him and at him and I feel like a child beating at the chest of a monster because I know no amount of anything will fix it. The ( Read more... )

Fact: I am two years closer to putting on my big girl panties and going out into the real world. This is a disturbing thought ( Read more... )

I made the mistake of drinking half an Amp two hours before I was done studying. Combined with my terrible sleeping habits this week and the cup of coffee I drank to wake myself up at 8pm, I can't sleep. I have a final in three hours. I've been lying in a zombie-like state for the past three hours ( Read more... )

my life is a fucking mess.

Sunday: he breaks up with me and breaks my heart
Monday: skipped all my classes to see Barack Obama speak
Tuesday: car accident. my car was in the sandwich of a good 3 car pileup

yep. it's only tuesday.

does anyone know any sot of bug on LJ? every time i make a public post, a creepy person IMs me telling me my posts have been stolen and he continues to send weird messages to me.

you know, it's weird. i added high school photos into an album on facebook and it's creepy how easy it was to make it seem like tom never existed in my life. 4 years of my life documented in photos and not one of those pictures makes any illusion to my relationship with him. two and a half years of my first serious relationship and it seems as if ( Read more... )

I found my acceptance package from NYU while cleaning my room. I could feel myself choking up when I read the acceptance letter and leafed through the folder with all the random information I will never need ( Read more... )

i fucking hate this time of the month.

i feel fat and ugly and stupid and unwanted and all i want are flowers or something pretty or nice or just to feel nice and i fucking HATE feeling like i don't have control over my feelings and i am constantly in a state where i want to curl up and cry then sleep then cry some more.

UGH.

"love is speaking in code ( Read more... )