I feel sick...like I'm physically about to throw up. I am anxious and worried and I'm so fucking tired of this bull shit. Why do I make things like this? Why do I take everything to heart? How come I read in to things so much? How come it hurts me when she has no patience with me? Why do I torture myself? Why do I want to just forget about ( Read more... )

Why do I have to be this way? I'm so up and down. Makes me think something really is wrong with me. Why do I feel like I HAVE to be perfect? I hate that. I hate that when I'm not perfect and I mess up, that I just break down and punish myself really hard. I punish myself and I hate myself and that's not ok. I had an argument w/ Tiff yesterday. I ( Read more... )

So, I feel like these last couple of weeks or so my gf and I have managed to become a lot closer. She is a lot more affectionate towards me and has even started saying she loves me first! It's such an amazing feeling. I feel like everyday I fall more in love with her and I never want to stop falling. I wish I could explain how I'm feeling right now ( Read more... )

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So, my life is incredible. I started to get worried bc I had this terrible week of being depressed and anxious, but I got through it. I was thinking about therapy, not because I wanted to go, but bc before that's what was being forced down my throat. Idk what caused it, but I'm glad it's over. I feel so amazing. I have never felt so good in my life ( Read more... )

your ghost of her

drifting away in this deep dark sea

would you even want to save me

no love notes you write on paper

feelings of abandonment taper

is this what you want, what you need

or do i force your feelings out of greed

i’m confused and bordering on afraid

old ( Read more... )

I want to use so bad. I've never wanted anything more in my life. I want to down those pills and feel those thrills and forget about my worries and have no hurries. Mmm yeah so good, I knew I would, I want it in my veins, to forget my pains. Fill me up, drink that cup, down down til I hit my crown and collapse

How is it that by doing something that usually makes me feel good, I've been left with this horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach and I kinda just want to starve myself and die? Not exactly the feeling I was going for.

Why do I always do this? I feel like I'm going to throw up. I am getting that scared feeling like she's going to tell me she doesn't love me...