-Almost one quarter of the school years over. i have a hard time taking any of it seriously, and though i know it's important, i have to try harder than ever to stay realitively interested. the elections soon and i couldn't care less... but i have to admit it's fun to piss off deering's liberals ( Read more... )

my baby for the first time today. it's tiny and adorable and it looks like a lima bean, and it's in the right spot and everythings okay. it has a heart beat and it makes it's mother hormonal and crazy. but i guess thats to be expected.

it's been a long time, and a lot of things have happened since my last entry. I'm happy with my life and starting to feel like i actually have a purpose. i feel loved, finally, and yet i cant convince myself to be entirely comfortable... I wish that i could, because my paranoia tends to hurt people. schools overwhelming for the first time ever, ( Read more... )

who knew it would take my 'best friend' being out of my life for me to finally feel happy. I visited cholage, and that was incredible. i love her. i bought raybans.... summers good.

I dont know what to do with myself. I want to move away from my life here, i want to start a new one somewhere else, or at least take a break from all of this. I want to breath her fresh air and kiss her cheeks and wake up in an unfamiliar place and not spoil any of her beauty. we'll get married and i'll forget everyone and live quiet and simple ( Read more... )

Summer's going nicely. I miss talking on the phone, but that'll be back. I have a kitten named Fig. I need to take 30 naps, i havent been sleeping and i feel like im going to run out of life. I start work on tuesday. im happy mostly. I need more books. more coffee. more something. FUCK.

    i notice that my livejournal posts are almost completely negative. im not sad all the time, if any of the people who read it where wondering. It just so happens that i'm usually pleasant, and content ( Read more... )

    i'm not exactly sure what i'm suppose to be doing with myself. i'm confused, but what am i confused about? maybe i'm just dizzy. "The peach trees are in bloom and the water flows on..."
    i want to be clean. i want to be happy. i hope this summer brings me happiness. i'm certain it can.

she might move here. :]

There are only 6 full school days left for me. I'm very excited, because i need a break from school. I need to get a job, so that i can pay for gas. All i want is to be happy and make my friends happy. everyone will be happy, damn it.

"
I was about to sail away in a junk,

When suddenly I heard

The sound of ( Read more... )

The next person who says anything about 'society' is going to get my foot down their fucking throat.