The military serves an extremely important purpose to the people of the United States as well as many other countries across the world. I do not doubt that for a minute. I commend those who make that difficult decision to take part in such an huge and life changing organization. It has been my experience, though, that the military changes people. I ( Read more... )

I haven't talked to my father really since around January.  We did breifly talk around his birthday in May.  I talked to him yesterday.  His health is deteriorating.  His heart condition is getting worse.  They can't fix the irregluar heartbeat, and if they don't find a way to fix it soon, his other organs will start to fail and shut down.  He was ( Read more... )

It's hard always being expendable.  Always something more important.  Broken promises.  Things come up.  It won't take that long, really.  I'll hurry up.  I'm tired of it all. Well, then, when you're ready to be half of something again, I suppose I'll be here.  I can't start over again.  Not yet.  You have time yet to figure out I'm important, or ( Read more... )

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Today's a bad day..  It's one of those days where I have the mindset that I'm not good enough for anything.  It all just turns out that way, and I feel like I don't fit in this world.  It just gets to be so hard sometimes.  I really just want out.  I never meant for life to be like this.

So, imagine this ( Read more... )

I wish I had something to do with my friday night...  Way to much on my mind to spend it alone.

It's nice to know that the "I suck at life" thing isn't in all guys.  I finally can smile again, things are good.  Confusing, but good.

I'm pretty sure I've reached that "I give up" stage.  He's never going to change.  Ever.  He's going to be a fucker about things, and it's never EVER going to be different.  He's going to list himself as single, regardless of how much he wants things back, which leads me to believe that he doesn't care.  that he wants to move on.  The only people ( Read more... )

The RULES ( Read more... )

It's nice to hear that he has been cold to the relationship for a while now.  Especially because I never have.  It's nice to hear he was trying to get me to just up and leave, now that things are actually starting to work out for me.  It's nice to know that he had no regard for me this whole past week, just a regard for his own selfish want to not ( Read more... )