i have come to a time in my life where decisions need to be made.   One route the way seems pretty straight forward.  It is the way i have worked towards for the last 4-5 years of my life.  It is safe.  It is to stay here, continue my life, wondering when it is going to change.  There are a few twists and turns in this path like going back to ( Read more... )

I have become completely disheartened with this fucking town.  I hope this raise at work goes through and we get the back pay they are talking about... that would be a really good starting point to move out of this place. people here have changed.  or maybe i have changed and they were unable to follow... either way i have moved away from my ( Read more... )

what and emotionally retarded weekend.  went to a wedding where 2 friends were getting married to each other.  I hope they make it i really do but a rational look at the situation isnt quite as favorable as my hopes.  There are skeletons in closets that if ever come out could be terrible.  then megan  called.   told me everything that i have wanted ( Read more... )

I was asked in a prior blog where i would want to go to start over.  the answer seems clear now

Boston

i never know when people are mocking me.  maybe it is my ignorance or my lack of giving a shit but i sometimes think people mock me.  they will ask me questions that really spark a passion inside of me and i get excited about it and give a good answer to the best of my knowledge.  i notice how excited about it i get and how truly humbled and amazed ( Read more... )

i have noticed it more and more lately...  how much power the opposite sex seems to have over all my friends with the exception of me.  which could be why i am single.   But i just think its bullshit.  Sure, show your girlfriend attention, i am not saying that you shouldn't.  But when you stop hanging out with your dudes all together because of ( Read more... )

take me far away from here

that is me.  i am plan B.  number 2, first place loser, the fall back guy, the ear to bitch to but never tell a joke to, the plans you make if Plan A falls through.  im the potatoes without the meat,  the jelly without the peanut butter.  the one you call when you are bored but the one you forget when you are making your plans.  im the one you love ( Read more... )

ha i found this poem i wrote forever ago... it kind of goes with the friends becoming shady theme tonight so why not repost it.  i like it a lot but i think there are a few lines that could have been better but oh well, its not like im trying to get published

Death Of An Angel
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human behavior is truly amazing.  people rarely live up to their word.  they say one thing and turn around and do the exact opposite.  people say things that amount to be empty promises ( Read more... )