i wish i was in some kickass band that made it.. ( yair,prepare your seats for take off. :( )

when i said, "OUTSIDE INSIDE OR FIRST AVAILABLE?" does not mean im gonna get you the first availalbe table mother fucker especially when were on a 40 minute wait. so dont come back five minutes later yelling cause you wanted the first available table. jesus. people. eat shit or something.

( you're in my dreams. i cant wake up.  its not a nightmare. its falling hopes. )

Today was one hell of a fun day,( goodtimes sunshine. )

sitting here talking to matt. i realize. why DO i stay up till 3-4 in the morning? i realize i could be sleeping. and not sititng in silence thinking..and as i post this my stance changed because get a 3 way with devin cause he 3 ways me with kristen..theyre so fun. i guess this is why im an effin insomniac. for reasons like this ( Read more... )

so i was gonna go to bed. but he came back online and he makes me laugh alot so i stayed. did he mean those silly  things he said while he was fucked up? do i show him that thats what i think? and thats what i want from him? . im so confused.

Him: hey list off the hosts/hostesses u HATE
LiL zUMz21: lol.
Him: IT WILL BE AWESOME
LiL zUMz21: you wont ( Read more... )

i cant help but feel a little disappointed.

( but disappointment is nothing new. )

Today, saw rachel, slept, swam, went to the Hollywood bowl with the fam.. saw Graham there, he watched the fireworkds with me. yay.

yesterday, i saw brett z. at islands. i wanted to thank him for that barbie doll he bought me. who would have thought i wouldnt see that kid for another 10 years. i didnt thank him. oh well. speaking of islands.

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I'm missing your bed
I never sleep

i do not fit into generalizations.
.thoughts of you.

i love how you make me laugh.