Really hope I can actually sleep tonight. Don't feel like staying up all night, thinking as usual. I am so sick of feeling so alone all the time. And listening to him snoring next to me isn't helping. I hate how he can be right next to me, yet I still feel like I'm by myself. Just another day...of me feeling sad, stressed, alone, and trapped. Then ( Read more... )

Currently almost 1 in the morning. I have been ATTEMPTING to fall asleep for a few hours now...in our bedroom, away from my husband. Don't feel like being around someone who likes to make me feel shitty most the time....even though he's "joking"....I've been bummed out enough as it is, cus well, life on my part isn't too far from crap. It's hard ( Read more... )

I don't know if I've ever been good enough, I'm a little bit rusty and I think my head is caving in ( Read more... )

I have no one. I am alone, just like I always have been. I'll never have the relationship with my "husband" that I want to have. He'll never fill any void. He'll never make me feel safe. He'll never be a sense of comfort ( Read more... )

Keep sitting there with that smug ass attitude. Keep fucking tempting me. Freedom from this toxic family is just a phone call and a dick ride away. Act like you're the only "man" willing to take care of me and my kids. Like there isn't a handful of mother fuckers I could hit up that have more money than you and more than willing to play the hero ( Read more... )

I'm about to make a mistake, I can feel it. This will all come crashing down one day, and the sad thing is, it will be because of his family ( Read more... )

I will never come first. I will always be the outsider to this family. He will never be there for me. I can't believe I have to go through with this. I can't believe I let myself get fooled by another guy. I fucked myself and my kids over time and time again to make this work....why? Cus I'm a goddamn idiot. Give them this fake shit. Get my shit ( Read more... )

How will I ever get your words to quite repeating in my head ( Read more... )

Why does it seem like everytime I turn around, I get smacked in the face ( Read more... )

How do you measure one's worth ( Read more... )